Actually, That IS How I Feel...

Why I Can't Stand Most Korean Owned Beauty Supply Stores.

2011-10-29T17:03:00.000-07:00

You know... One thing I cannot stand is how folks set up shop (beauty supplies) which carry mostly African American targeted products and things WE use... in primarily Black communities- yet act like they have no home training when it comes to customer-service or respect for the people whom your business primarily caters to!!! I'm talking about Hair & Wigs Beauty Supply on Crenshaw Blvd. next to 29th and right before Adams in particular, but I know plenty of other supply stores who act a damn fool with Black customers.

I normally go there to pick up my usual 1 or 2 wigs and carry on. Usually it's no issue as the women who usually work here are generally 'ok' in the service department, but when I tell you they have permanently lost my black dollars; I mean it. I drove all the way from Hawthorne to this place because it WAS the only beauty supply I knew I could count on to have a huge variety and in the worst case scenario- at least have a fall back regular style in stock.

I went in here early to pick up a wig and they already were acting like they didn't want to be bothered with servicing the only customer in the store- (me). So I had her put my 'usual' at the front- in case I couldn't pick one of the others. I picked about 3 different styles and couldn't pick which one I liked best or the color I wanted. I tried a wig on that as soon as I put it on I thought to myself 'no-ma'am' and went to take it off, and like clockwork- this lady goes in to comment, "The color not for you (not it's) but it too short for you too- you need longer."

Now let me start by saying one- I am a licensed stylist. In practice or not, trust that I know what does and does not look good on me when it comes to color, cut, and style. However, in this business and line of work- you need to tread lightly on how you go about "recommending" things to people you do not know. The majority of these folks (the korean ones anyway) completely LACK tact in the 'how-to-say-that-with-respect-to-a-potential-customer' department and think you're still going to do business with them. Hell-to-the-NO. If I was a new customer- I'd never spend money there if that was how they react to choices that THEY don't like on you. That is the point of trying the fucking thing on- to see if I like it or not- what you think matters not; That's where THEY fail at majorly. You're here to make money- I'm here to spend money. See the relation in that??? I am not saying let people walk out of your store looking like a damn fool- but until you learn how to tactfully say things- without being offensive or rude; it may just be in your best interest to shut the fuck up and make your coins. Let the customer figure out if they made a bad choice.

Now generally un-asked-for opinions are usually unwelcome in the first place. Often times I go to wig stores with no make up no nothing going on- so I have nothing to play up the do' or no real "color" to my face. Most folks who normally wear a 5 minute face or an all out face of make up- look a bit washed out without make up- so it does nothing for the hairstyle or the color of the hair you're wearing. Which is maybe why she thought I shouldn't or couldn't pull off the color I was looking at- which again is not that far from my natural color. So I tried on a different wig in a 4, and it was a bit lengthier, but I just wasn't feeling the style and was leaning more toward a different one but in the 4/30 instead of the 1B... I didn't put on a platinum blond wig people- yet she wanna try to go in like that is just a terrible, terrible choice for me.

So I just said- 'I have a license, I know what does and doesn't work for me- thank you. It's not about the "color" right now- it's about the style and cut of the hair.' So I'm already starting to get irritated... Now, I never go too far off from my natural color, but I also wanted to try something a bit different. So as I am trying on a "full" wig (meaning none of my hair will show) in a 4/30 which is a lighter brown with golden tones- this chick want to say, 'I like the other one on you-the color look better, not this color.' Now the 'crazy' in me wanted to snap off, but I just said 'Look- I know what works for me and I do what works for me- THANKS." So she walks away and huffs like I don't know what the hell I'm talking about. Which was rude as hell, and truth be told- I never asked for your opinion on NONE of the mentioned items in the first damn place; So your disagreement with me and/or my choice is a non-muthafucking factor. However, it was a factor in 3 things...

1. The thought that you know what I like-or what looks good on me better than I do.
2. That you could care less if you sold me something today or not.
3. You just KNEW I'd spend my money at your beauty supply regardless of your mannerisms, speech & behavior toward me.

EEEENNNNT!!!! YOU ARE WRONG- SO WRONG- & VERY FUCKING WRONG!!!

At that point I immediately changed my mind about spending my hard earned cash at this beauty supply, walked straight to the front and told the mid-aged lady who works there in regard to the older one. "I don't want anything- you can put those back and here is a tip for your business, you do not tell people what they should and should not do with THEIR hair and THEIR MONEY. She is rude as hell and I will never spend money here again." Didn't pay the 1$ for the wig cap I used and walked the hell off. Which was justified. As much money as I have spent in this store you should already know I am going to buy something- I didn't come in here to waste your time or kill some of mines by playing with the damn wigs. However, I do not pay for RUDE personal opinions or bad service. More of us need to behave this exact way toward them when they act like that with US. I don't need you shoving anything, or your opinion- I don't and didn't want nor ask for- down my throat because of your ignorant ass perceptions of what the "typical" Black woman wants when it comes to her beauty needs.

I can't speak for all Black women, because truthfully and rightfully everyone doesn't know what looks good on them. Which is why stylist exist... However, when someone is shooing you and your opnions off- it means shut up and leave them alone to make their OWN DAMN CHOICES. :o) As for myself... Whether my hair is long, hella short, layered, flipped out or in a curly fro- my style is fierce baby. I am a rare breed who for the most part can get away with just about any style, length, texture, and "look- No, I'm not cocky that is just the TRUTH... Check my photos. #fashionista

Often times most Blacks put up with these folks because it's close and/or we just need the supplies for that one day not to come back ever again or that often- however, I used to come here almost every 2 or 3 weeks. Black folks need to open up our own beauty supplys and pull the power from those who act like they don't need or want our business. I promise you- it ain't that many non-Blacks coming in here to buy products, make-up, weaving hair, wigs, and/or extensions that are keeping your doors open; It's primarily Blacks keeping your business alive. And that is why I say they need to take back that power and open up their own supply stores so that 1- they'll either up the game on their customer service or 2- get the fuck out of dodge. Either way they get the big middle finger and no more of my money. There way too many beauty supplies in the city of Los Angeles to be RUDE to customers. I know there ARE supplies that appreciate my Black business and that's where my Black dollars will be.

I'm So Ready To Move...

2011-10-05T18:00:00.000-07:00

I'm so ready to move it's not even funny.

Lighter...

2011-09-14T07:52:00.000-07:00

Getting Serious About Weightloss...

2011-07-30T22:26:00.000-07:00

Honest feelings about what I am going to do to shed some of this weight :o) See you on the flipside.

Split Grip & Inverting...

2011-07-29T22:19:00.000-07:00

Progress... finally got the split grip.

Poling in July...

2011-07-06T20:59:00.000-07:00

yes.. i am still at it.

I Don't Work For You...

2011-06-28T17:42:00.001-07:00

Why do I always have to check people like this?

Backbend

2011-06-14T18:18:00.000-07:00

Gettin' There...

2011-05-17T21:12:00.000-07:00

For those of us who for the most part have begun practicing at home- be discouraged not. I have learned the secrets of my pole...lol It likes to be warmed up before being touched. She's a funnyl lil' thang. Once she's hot- we can go for hours. LOL
I have been working on my inverting and I am finding the need to "kick off" becoming less and less *see the most latest video for this* Though I still do it, I am finding proper positioning and engaging that core helps. :o) As I have said before, actually seeing that progress is so motivating and another factor for one to keep on going and keep practicing. I love pole! Have any of you recently learned anything special about YOUR pole?

At Home Polin'

2011-05-14T07:35:00.001-07:00

Having a good time... :o)

This Is What Keeps Me Poling...

2011-05-06T14:16:00.000-07:00

So.. as some of you've seen, I've put up a video of my first ever unassisted invert (somewhat) that I happened to get on camera. Beyond excited, and as I said legs all wrong but happy just to be upside down. I recall that being just a hope I can do that thing... And a few weeks ago- couldn't even get my legs ON the pole... This happening showed me that all this practice, even if it's just a try a day, that progress is made; even if it is just small. Small turns into medium and eventually large. I do believe that we all get stuck in a rut at one point that makes us question whether we'll advance anymore, but I have always relied on the knowledge that somethings will come easy, others will require work/more strength and eventually I'll be working on perfecting it.

What I am working on conquering is this sweaty palm problem. Though I from time to time HAVE to use gloves, I want to be able to pole without them. I read in a forum posting that just somewhat going through the drama of dealing with the sweat you'll eventually not have the issue... I just don't like feeling like I am going to fly off the pole especially having weight on me... I can feel what i have a wonderful grip from the initial grab... but I'd like to not have to wipe the pole down every few seconds. *smh* We shall see...
I think it's the milestones such as finally achieving the chair spin, being able to climb all the way to the top, and the first invert unassisted and somewhat getting it... on my own- that keeps me going and willing to go to another class, practice a little bit more, or try one more time- because you just never know when you'll nail it. To those trying to get to the next level...just keep doing what you're doing and work on the technique of achieving the moves and one day... even if ever so slightly, you'll be able to do it... :o)
Happy Poling- Nikki

Look What I Did Today...

2011-05-04T21:08:00.001-07:00

All by myself! This is the first time I've been able to get all this butt up on the pole for an invert...lol Legs was all wrong, but uhhh we'll correct that shortly. I was just happy to be upside down on the pole and caught it on camera... This is the rush that keeps us trying; The knowing that ONE DAY we'll be able to do "that"... AHHHHH! Enjoy. :o)

The Beauty & Challenges of Plus-Sized Poling...

2011-04-25T21:09:00.000-07:00

Okay so i am a bit over 200 lbs... carried very well in my humble opinion, but of course with being plus sized comes beauty and challenges. Though poling as an art wows me regardless I must be honest when i say a woman swinging 170+ and is not 5'10+ around a pole is something that REALLY amazes me. First, the strength required to perform the moves is for the most part doubled and the determination/will to WANT to and do it is immeasurable. I'm not saying slim chicks have it all easy because just like dancing some people do have 2 left feet no matter what... but determination is what makes learning doable. Hey- Janet Jackson was once the stiffest dancer you could think of. LOL This particular sport/art is something that carries it challenges for us larger ladies simply because of larger/chunkier/bigger/ meatier anatomy... I prefer to call it fluffy. :o)

Either way- here is some of the challenges/accomplishments I've dealt with & seen myself being a plus sized poler...

1. The period where it seems like you just cannot do anything that required upper-body/core strength. I still have those moments, but I just keep in the back of my head.. I just can't do it YET... I will though.

2. Spins that do not last long at all... seems like you just stepped and jumped... lol

3. That first time learning the "basic" climb and just staring at the pole like..."how am i gonna get 'this" up there??? o_O *lol* Then attempting it only to basically just step up and get right back down...

4. Being the ONLY plus sized poler in class and feeling left out because I couldn't do "that spin" because it required some arm strength I just DIDN'T have (yet) to get this body around the pole...

5. My arch nemesis spin conquered 2 months down the road... After seemingly everyone else got it on their first try. Damn you chair spin... Damn you. O_o

6. Trying to perform a climb and "sitting lady".. Ummm yeah my thighs are a little big.. I'm having a hard time crossing my legs here *LOL*... I can now though...

7. Doing a figure 4 leg hold and leaning back thinking 'Oh hell yeah'.. I GOT THIS.

So today was one of those accomplishment days... A damn good practice if I say so myself. I got to "show" a fellow plus sized poler- hey we can do this too... I saw the very same look of "I don't know if I can do this" on her face I once had... So I showed her how to do a move she was struggling with (she's completely new to poling) I gave quick and basic explanation- It's just going to take a little more work, building strength, but you WILL get it. as long as you keep at it.
I also was able to climb the pole to the top a few times with out last 5 minutes of "dowatchalike" time and it was kinda nice for a change to just DO IT. Regardless of weight.. it was pure practice- gaining in strength- and determination... If you want to learn it, you'll learn it. No matter what your size.. Just keep at it.

Still Polin'...

2011-04-17T21:10:00.001-07:00

Still getting it in...

Even Polers Have Gripes...

2011-04-13T19:26:00.000-07:00

Ehhhh so I am still poling and have sacrificed something I hold near and dear to my heart... I even PRIDE myself on having a lovely, soft pair of hands... BUT NO MORE says the pole. lol I HATE HATE HATE the calloused hands part and I am PRAYING that it gets better with time. Please someone say it's going to get better... Pretty please.. i'll buy you some Coldstone ice cream. *smh*

Either way, my true gripe is here; the other day I had a class in which had anyone else not shown up it would have pretty much been a private session. However, someone did show up- a chick that had fell off the pole the previous Saturday because she was in a beginner/intermediate transitioning class and has practically NEVER taken more than 2 classes but told the instructor she was intermediate level. So before class even starts this girl out the gate is complaining to the instructor about how much her back hurts, and my thoughts were "if my back was hurting that damn bad- I wouldn't bring my butt into a class again until it let up or I went to see a doctor"... BUT the instructor gave her a brief fill-in on the normal pains for the people who just started poling, and also informed her that she knows her body best and should know if something is truly wrong.

So instead of playing it smart- she decides she wants to stick around and now we have to take it 10 notches down based on this girl is hurting and also has NO CLUE of how to execute anything. Through the whole class she's continually whining about her arm, which is related to her back and on top of this- knowing none of the moves... And I quote, "can you show me how to do that again?" >:o/

Now, I ain't gonna lie... I was hella irritated because I don't pay for "unlimited classes" to have someone who needs to be in an INTRO class to show up and slow down a whole session. Yes, we've all been out of place and/or not up to par, but you know as a beginner you're not ready for ADVANCED tricks... I have even seen some of the people who skip intro and come straight into beginners go back and take intro's so they can get a good grasp on what they'll be doing and I can respect that. I took intro classes because didn't want to be "that girl" who just couldn't keep up in a "beginners" class and that is why I took a few intros before moving up. Hell- the studio offers an INTRO Package CHEAP!!! (4 intro classes with shoes) just so you ARE familiar with the basic moves before moving up to full-on beginner level.

I honestly felt VERY cheated out of a poling session. I felt someone should have been dismissed & compensated in some shape or form. If I was the instructor she would have been sent home on account of 2 factors. First, you sound like you are either in too much pain to fully participate or you've been injured. Meaning, you're not in optimal condition to be swinging off a pole- no matter how bad you want to learn. You should go home and rest up your pains and/or go see a doctor. Secondly, after seeing how badly she bombed on the most basic spins in the first 10 minutes of actually poling (and I'm not talking about "oh we're trying to learn" bombing) I mean damn near falling off the pole hurting herself worse- bombing. Unsure of foot placement etc...should have been referred to an intro class. This could have played out 2 ways in my mind...

If I was an instructor I would have said to her, "You seem to be in a bit of pain so I am going to suggest you schedule class at a later time when your back is better or you've have seen a doctor to ensure all is okay. I am also seeing that you're struggling with the basic concepts of how to execute these moves, so we will finish up this session, but I would recommend you take at least 2 or 3 intro to pole classes. I am suggesting this because they are more broken down and you'll be able to get a better understanding on how these moves are accomplished. You'll also be more prepared and able to keep up when you come to the next beginners class."

Second scenario: Being that I had to almost stand around while she went through intro type explanations with this girl... The least the instructor could have let me do- based on the majority of time was spent showing 'the basics' to the other girl... was say if there was an opening for the next pole class- stick around and take that one instead.

YEAH YEAH YEAH we were all complete "pole virgins" once, but I paid my dues in intro- I'm not saying I'm better than or looking down on the girl, but my time and money are not on the list of thing I like to waste... You don't just jump in the deep end of the pool not knowing how to swim; that's all I'm sayin'.

Regular 'Ol Workout Revelation...

2011-04-08T11:06:00.000-07:00

Yesterday I attended a small group personal training session at the place where I practice pole and I was immediately reminded on why I prefer pole workouts. I just do not like the "workout" (hell I don't like anything that feels like exercise to be honest...lol) it's almost too damn strenuous for no damn reason. I'm not a fan of running number uno because i'm not running around with 34 A/B cups. I am a D/DD cup... So between running, jumping jacks, and other things that make the girls flop all over.. I am holding my chest the entire time. Even when my sports bra doubled down. It's just very uncomfortable.
Yeah, I'm good and sweaty after the workout but can't I get some of the same results without the stress? Yep- I sure can. I may not see the results as fast, but I just can't get with it. I've got a bad knee and a back that ain't so great so all of this jump, get down push up and repeat all the way down the hall stuff is for the birds. I went through bootcamp and know what I used to be able to do, and these days I cannot do it. Well- I probably could, but I will NOT put myself through any uneeded/uneccesary pain, uncomfortableness etc just to say "I tough it out" or "I workout hard" , It's just not good for my current physical situation after the military... Not for the joints, knees or back. I'd rather do a bunch of crunches/sit-ups on a stable foot hold and push an elliptical for 45 minutes to an hour... "manual workouts" are not for me. It also helped me re-realize that pole just does not feel like a workout at all (while it very much is) and that's what I LOVE most about it. Maybe the fact that I know it is a workout but doesn't feel like one is why I haven't stopped showing up, don't get tired of doing it, look forward to, and enjoy doing it.

When I got home later that night I pondered going to the "workout" session at least once a week, but then I thought about how much I truly disliked it and said the hell with what THEY think- cancelled all of those classes and scheduled pole classes instead. I do not regret it one bit nor do I feel like I am cheating myself out of a "better workout". I'm sure some folks might look at me like "I can't hang" lol and that's okay... I'd rather get my excercise "hanging" on a pole. #ohwell

That's my look when doing regular exercise.... Is it done yet? This is boring as hell.

Pole Dancin' (Week 4)...

2011-03-19T18:33:00.000-07:00

Totally addicting... Enjoy. :o)

Dismissed...

2011-03-09T08:42:00.000-08:00

It's time for people to move on and around... #Letsgo..

PSA; Unwanted Reporting...

2011-03-03T19:17:00.000-08:00

Stop reporting to people when you see other folks they don't speak to... Most folks don't care. That is all.

Pole Dancin' (Week 1)

2011-03-03T19:11:00.000-08:00

Getting it in... Let's Go!

Get Your Money Right...

2011-02-11T20:32:00.000-08:00

At it TOUGH with this MacBook.... However it felt HELLA GOOD to pay for it Cash.. you ZEET??? Enjoy this on the finances!

Punk Ass People

2011-02-10T19:48:00.000-08:00

People get on my damn nerves...

My New MacBook!!!

2011-02-05T18:38:00.000-08:00

Week One Down...

2011-01-07T17:40:00.000-08:00

I am finally at my first weekend for relaxin'... Nice place to work and may be even better in the long run.. Hmmm.

At The Job... Day 1...

2011-01-03T19:27:00.001-08:00

Finally at the job.. Whew!

Final Day... Thoughts.

2011-01-02T18:03:00.001-08:00

Tomorrow.. is the DAY. YEAH BOYEEEE!!!

PC vs. MAC: The Decision...

2011-01-02T15:14:00.000-08:00

Today, I stopped by the Apple Store to browse... I must admit I have been doing some research on the computers and am growing more interested as I learn more about them. My eyes loomed over the beautifully crafted-yet simplified machinery. I asked a billion questions as I played with the magic mouse and the trackpad; closing 4 applications with one four-fingered claw swipe. As I sifted through applications, and looked at what was included versus, what I'd have to buy; I couldn't help but realize how much money I've wasted on Windows based machines. Although I love my Windows XP OS... because frankly-it's just the SHIT::: The computer itself has served it's purpose for many years (since 2002 to be exact) It is just time to replace it.

When I began attending school in June of 2008, the whopping 40GB on my archaic Gateway desktop was not nearly enough to handle much more abuse of the average PC user, so I bought an HP laptop with crap-ass Vista as it's OS, which died on me about a year and a half later. So I had to resurrect the desktop which had done it's thing for the past 6 years to complete the last 5 courses of school-work, internet research and final observation essays. Let's just say-music addition and current performance takes PATIENCE. You can plug and play items and hear the connection chime minutes after the item has been connected ok!? Though I generally have been using it for resume submission, facebookin', and simple surfing, it's not fun to watch a YouTube video that has to buffer every few seconds, or the quality of the stream simply is not be up to par. I'd rather watch YouTube on my iPhone. O_o

I'm no super MODDER but I have no need to ultimately customize my OS's anymore. Linux Ubuntu is not neccesary for me. However, I've realized I am over the Windows platform for personal use. I am sick of updates, patches, fixes, anti-virus software, and tired of spending dollar on top of dollar on PC's in which performance dramatically decreases, or plain become grade 'A' crap- 1 year down the road. What about most compatibility issues? Well, from what I see and have researched, with the MAC, most compatibility issues are from programs the average PC user doesn't use anyhow so I could care less.

Bottom Line: I just want a machine that does what I need it to do, without a steady decline in performance and speed. I'll take the added bonus that the MAC just happens to look nice too. So people, I have made the decision to start ANEW... Yes, I will be getting an iMAC. I am so in love. *sigh*

Happy New Year People!!!

2011-01-01T19:39:00.001-08:00

Thank you for viewing. Even though my numbers are small.. I appreciate even my smallest audience.

Facebook 'N Hair...

2010-12-29T20:05:00.000-08:00

OK... so I am surfing and come across these "news" links on msn.. and "Fired for Facebook comments" comes up:. 2 things I believe in... 1) If you're applying to a company and dumb enough to give them your social network sites and/or 2) they are not PRIVATE- you's a damn fool and should EXPECT them to go snooping. Unless you're an L7 and never do/say anything that can perceived as anything else than being just that... here is a bright idea: Lock it down, create a "linkedin" acct for work purposes... and never add anyone from work to your social network sites unless you know they are NOT snitches or snoops. #Thatisall

Enjoy...

Finally Up...

2010-12-21T14:54:00.000-08:00

I Make No Apologies When I Say This: Nicki Minaj is Garbage

2010-11-27T22:38:00.000-08:00

There is not enough interviews, songs, or clips to make me a believer. I don't just toot my nose up on music without reason... I'm not that ignorant to music. Good music is good music and garbage is garbage. I give thorough listens before opening my mouth- I have listened to her on an individual tip and Nicki Minaj is GAH-BAGE. I listen to lyrical content...Not gimmicks and she ain't talking about shit. Now before you go calling me a "hater" because my opinion differs from the people who like her form of "rap" which closely resembles Tourettes... Let me make my points clear of why people like her are the reason REAL hip-hop and lyrical finesse is dying- if not SOLIDIFIED dead.

So Nicki saying they want something new but she stay copying the OLD faces stuff down to "looks" and poses on photos... You wanna change the game? Well do something new then!!! Attempting to LOOK like the other ones who came before you- then trying to act like you created it is not NEW; it's disrespectful. There is no comparison to anyone she mentioned because she doesn't have any of the lyrical skill that any of them possess... She can't hold a candle to none of them chicks and since she's headlining...especially not Lil' Kim. And I quote Kim, "I'm the blueprint, you ain't nuttin' brand new- check ya posters and videos- you'll always be number 2."

People continually want to reference what Kim looks like, but I look at that for what it is; a piss poor defense for Nicki's lacking lyrical skill. Lil' Kim could have a penis growing out the side of her head like the little girl from 'The Oblongs', and she still has better flows than Nicki will ever have AND it don't change the fact that Nicki still bit her entire style. Stop denying the obvious- she wanna GET where Kim BEEN... And realistically speaking, if booty implants and makeup weren't the availible, where would Nicki be? Right with the majority of women, on the average scale. STOPPIT.

Hollering "ya ya ya ya I'mma monster" on a track doesn't make you creative-it makes you retarded. And honestly the only people Nicki seems to appeal to is people who are either holding an IQ of less than 2, or betwixt the ages of 16-24. Not folks who understand what the Q-Tip song, "Dance on Glass" is about. People who know what lyricism is about don't care for her- they look at her for what she is.. a flash in the pan "rapper" and I use the word rapper loosely. She will NOT be around in 2020... She'll be lucky if she makes it to 2013. Gimmicky raps and two-toned weaves will only take you so far.

The only thing she hasn't done like any of the other female rappers out there, is have the NUTS to call out names of someone who may have been beefing said something referencing them. She tries to be subliminal which is pussy IMHO... Remy Ma, Lil' Kim, Foxy, Brat, Eve, Trina and any other female rapper would call it how they see it and do it moving on her ass. This mix with water, shake, and go chick does not have the goods you stans keep wanting to believe she has.
EEEEEENT!!!! Wrong.
However, this is the result of so much garbage being put out- folks no longer know what GOOD lyrics are. I'm sure the majority of people who like her also think "Wocka Flocka Flame" or "Soulja Boy" have great lyrical skills too. I mean there is a time to 'shake that monkey, drink 'n 2-step, or even feel on some booty'... but when it comes to lyrical content these people are not in the same league as say ummm Nas, Tupac, Biggie, Common, or Jay-Z. ok. I'm jus keepin' it TRILL.

And for the record... People who want to talk about Kim not writing her rhymes; Suck a ding-a-ling. NOBODY has no collaboration on song- Hell, Michael Jackson collaborated. Nicki is not this one-woman show you all want to believe she is. Take a look at the chicks garbage cd insert if you were foolish enough to buy it and see if it only has her name in any of the song composer credits. People work with people period. She ain't doing all the work in her music down to the actual lyrics and if she is: that would be a great indicator od why she NEEDS to hire a writer because her shit is terrible. She's on this bubble gum, just make sure it rhymes crap. She is grade 'A' Trash. She gets NO PLAY in my home, ride, or mix-tapes.

On a positive note- Nicki occasionally, and I mean occasionally like a total eclipse of the sun, has a lyric or two that's ok... Which makes her- equivalent to Nate Dogg in my book. Hot on occasion, but I don't want to hear a whole Nate Dogg album. No matter how hard you try to sell this broad- she's just not hot. Not to me anyway. She's simply an in denial cookie-cutter clone rapper- who will go away. And if you wanna know how dispicable I find her music to be... I wouldn't take the Pink Friday cd if it was free... let alone spend 9.99 on it. GTFOH.
SO- Again, I Make No Apologies When I Say This: Nicki Minaj is Garbage. Period. #Thatisall

Just in case you missed it. WOOP. She better stay in her lane.

M'er F'ing Neighbors...

2010-11-24T14:58:00.000-08:00

Damn I can't wait to move!!!

Yet Another Interview...

2010-11-17T16:03:00.001-08:00

I had another one today... So here it is and some updates on the rest of my life.

Life As Is...

2010-10-27T12:17:00.001-07:00

What's goin's on...

I Said Nothing About A Relationship... Absolutely Nothing.

2010-10-15T12:32:00.000-07:00

Don't you hate when you online link up with people you're looking to make friends with, and they try to get a relationship outta you!? WTF?

Do Not Annoy Unemployed People By Saying Stuff Like...

2010-10-15T12:27:00.000-07:00

People who have no job are not looking to "trick off" if you will, but the last thing we want to hear is- there is plenty of "free" things to do.. because there isn't. dammit.

Bad Ass Kids...

2010-09-06T17:11:00.000-07:00

It makes no sense that you can't have a relaxed quiet afternoon in your own damn apartment... The apartment hallway is not fucking Chuck-E-Cheese. Holiday or not- it is not-nor is it ever an appropriate time to let your bebe-ass-kids run up and down hallways disturbing every-damn-body-else. You want them to run and frolick- take them to a park or something; THEN wanna say something to them (Like you dicipline them in the first place) AFTER I opened the door and look at you and him crazy. *smdh*

Job Hunting is a Job...

2010-08-24T20:29:00.000-07:00

So I was feeling a lil' better and got jazzed up and got on my job hunt grind :) I got to talk to folks who "can make it happen" all day luckily... So hopefully the fruits of my diligent labor will pay off soon.. *fingers crossed*

The Issue With Job Hunting...

2010-08-20T18:57:00.000-07:00

The fact remains we all must play the game of 'Job Hunting' in our lives and it's so overrated... I think HR managers are the new cowards in this game. They used to be straight up- not call you back or keep in touch if they had NO interest in interviewing or hiring you... WTF people?

Life Lessons: Phoney Friends

2010-08-14T08:52:00.000-07:00

It's time to bid a farewill, R.I.P. and toss flowers at old friendships that simply ain't meant. I don't do phoney friends, nor will I ever. Holler if you hear me.

Life After School...

2010-08-07T20:04:00.000-07:00

Navy veteran... Check
IT admin experience...-Check
Cometology License... Check
Bachelors Degree... Check
Now what?

The sad state of WE...

2010-07-01T21:00:00.000-07:00

Just thinking about how sad Black folks can think at times.. Like a Spike Lee Joint.. WAKE UP!!!!

The Truth About Lies...

2010-05-24T17:15:00.000-07:00

I am a firm believer in karma and how the things we do, thinking nobody will know or find out usually comes back to bite us in the ass. There is only once in a while you may get by without the world knowing your dirt... Or simply go a good deal of time without being found out but karma knows and will manifest eventually. I'm just laughing thinking about my own karma in the past, how I got what I deserved and how karma has been with others. I'm amused by how a person will trip when you dish karma back automatically. This usually happens when people think nothing will change- and when it does they are like the Jackson 5; in a state of shock. *smh* like BAM!!! I say, don't be mad, or cry about the results of dirt you've done... You wasn't worried when you did it- so why be mad about it now. Man up, yes ladies too... Man up and deal with it and learn from your mistakes. You can't fool everybody, but you're a fool for trying to do that to anybody. HOLLER.

Life in LA... Single, Free & Disengaged.

2010-05-22T17:14:00.000-07:00

You know... I was in love with an idiot. Key word is was... It's a trip how a change of scenery can put shit in true perspective. This person thought that they was king fucking kong apparently. I tried all I could and at times KNEW it was pointless... But you know us women... Sometimes too busy thinking with our hearts instead of our heads. Now it's hella funny that this cat is like screw you blah blah blah... How you gonna be mad with me because I'm not letting you treat me like shit anymore....Like I'm the one who got caught on film doing 4 much. Uhhhh ok! Alrighty then............. As many chances as I gave the fool to get his shit together- he CHOSE not to. So he need to be mad he hasn't learned a valuable lesson or grown the hell up. You played a terrible game and lost. I gave this dumb ass chance after chance and he must have done the same DUMB shit every single time. Well I'm outta patience, done accepting fake ass apologies, and over being done wrong when your ass is hella replaceable. How you got nothing to offer anybody but have no act right? That don't mix- I'd rather be with someone who acts right. Hell the least you can do if your going to be fucking up is be able to tend to me- fuck that lol... I spent nights alone, I asked why, I cried, I did whatever I could as a woman without degrading myself but he found ways time after time to try to make me feel like I deserved how he acted. It wasn't me- i just realized he needs ego strokes I didn't freely give, so thats why he kept these multiple hoes around and he just is simply used to trash- so of course he didn't know what to do with a treasure. And you thought I wanted to bring that bullshit to another city!? Hells naw...I'll pass. You know- you win some and you lose some; and he definitely lost this one and there's no get back after this... The damage is done. It would be bad ju-ju to deal on ANY level after this mess... I wouldn't even want to be around him- I don't love him like that any more, I don't want it to work anymore...I'd be seeing other men and I damn sure wouldn't be fucking his ass so- what would the point be after all this??? None at all. Yes, I could be spiteful but I'm not into childish games... I will hit you with blessed wishes and move on. That'll get you worse. Stick to what you thought you wanted when you left me hanging... I'll be with someone else feeling great like Tony. However, I've reclaimed my shit... ALL of it. I'm not stupid, dumb or anybodys property- I am a woman and I will be treated as such------ period. Stick to the tricks, tramps and trash you're used to and get out the way for a real man to claim this queen. *poof* be gone. #bitchboobye

Dammit, Don't Do That!!! (Life Annoyances pt.2)

2010-03-23T19:42:00.001-07:00

Annoying things- yet again.. in shopping for specifics.. and yet again phone calls.

Life annoyances...

2010-03-22T15:38:00.000-07:00

Life annoyances in Food ordering, and hair.

I'm Unemployed.. and that's OK.

2010-03-19T13:34:00.000-07:00

Just shows you how much of a damn these places really care about you-... I basically got hired and "separated" the next week because I was sick and couldn't make it to 1 day of training... AS IF there was never going to be a training session ever again in life... Fuck Supercuts. LOL.

EFF Bad Service...

2010-02-28T22:16:00.001-08:00

There is nothing worse than bad service.

People Amuse Me...

2010-02-14T12:47:00.001-08:00

HA HA HA- For real?

Questions YOU SHOULD NOT ask folks after S-E-X...

2010-02-05T21:05:00.001-08:00

Great sex is just that... You either enjoy it or you don't... I just want to put three elements.. more-so questions out there that you need not ask a MUGG after you done did tha do.

1- Did you come?

If you have to ask.. you know the answer (Think about it...) I mean most times even if I didn't it's not like YOU didn't- that's why you're on ya back knocked out sleep.

2- AM I in your top 5? Why would you want to know.. I mean seriously!!! If you really want to have your feelings shitted on, by all means go ahead and ask... Long story short- most women will place "making love" and "intimacy" given by a long term partner UP on the totem pole over a mugg who just beat it black and blue...(Think about it...)

I personally have had much better experience with someone I knew gave a damn about me, what I liked, and how I felt... YEP. Sorry bang bangers- (And to those concerned about a top 5...) If your ass is older than 25- and you had sex.. 9 times out of 10 you had more than 3 partners. Unless you only been sleeping with that one person since you started fukkin'- LIAH.

<-- Keepin' it reallz.

3- Am I the best? NIGGA PLEASE. It is another one of those things.. If you have to ask...

"Queen of tha muthafukkin' South- and I can't be stopped- so shut yo' mouth..."- Trina MIXXTAPE.

in Los Angeles This Past Weekend...

2010-01-26T10:49:00.001-08:00

I had a great time, hung out with some friends and got a lil hang out in. Met some real people, and it makes or will be making my trips to LA that much more fun! I came to know some REAL truths about a little situation I was going through.. but even now- regardless of what is said, done, or assumed.. I am just fine with everything as it is. If people want to be foolish enough to make silly choices in their life- that is on them. I just prefer not to keep ties to those type of individuals. If all you can think about in life is how to 'get over' instead of how to 'get on'; you are not the type of person I want or need in my life on ANY level. Some people love chaos and disorder- some people love the attention... so find that spotlight in the places you have been- Yeah, the ones nobody knows about! If I can't say nothing else about me- I'll never EVER internalize anything that person did to me and feel that I was ever a problem or had been one. I am simply too real, too much woman, and too fabulous, too smart and way too good for & to that person. To the degree that he expected to be able to treat me like dirt, come and go as he pleased, and had multiple females he was messing with all while lil' ol' Nikki was supposed to be like ' oh ok...' HELL TO THE NAW. I was never the problem- he was. I shine TOO bright, and that person may have gave a damn... maybe not, but I know that they loved everything about me- except the fact that I AM NOT & NEVER WAS STUPID. *snap* Oh Darn! Either way baby, c'est la vie! This beautiful woman deserves the same energy from those who want to be in her circle. Everything happens for a reason, and people are in your life for a reason, season, or lifetime... Your season had been up- we were just in denial. I wish you no harm and hope everything works out for you.... I WISH YOU WELL. I hope the choices you made, and make will make you a better person and put you in a better place- just as mines have and do. God Bless....

Love, peace and hairgrease!

Niks

What I Have Learned... (Reflections)

2010-01-19T23:47:00.000-08:00

After dealing with a crock of shit ass excuse for a dude for the past 2 and a half years; I finally rogered up on the situation, and seen it for what it was and IS- rather than what I'd like it to be. I'd like to share with you all, what I have learned from the whole shitty experience.

1. Trifling people will look you dead in your eyes and lie right through their teeth to get whatever it is they want from someone. 'I love you' <-- example.
2. Some people seriously have no limits on how low they'll go- or act to have it 'their" way.
3. People who are out for themselves are only thinking about the 'moment'- not the long haul. Which is why they are usually unstable people- constantly going place to place.
4. Any man that feels the need to have a backup plan in regards to his "relationship" (And by that I mean multiple bitches all over the place... Is just as much of a hoe as she is for fucking with him- knowing he had a woman.
5. NEVER compromise your dignity, self-respect, or tolerance levels for the sake of "love" because real love doesn't hurt. I mean that mentally, physically, and emotionally. If that person loved you- they wouldn't treat you like shit.
6. Any guy that sits on a cell-phone like a 16 year old girl is cheating.
7. Any guy that's always in the club is cheating.
8. Any guy that's always hanging up under his "homeboys" is cheating- that or he's got some "tendencies".
9. Any guy that thinks he got it like that will certainly try to push the envelope to see just how far they can go. Most of the time never bold enough to just do it- but attempt whatever they THINK they can get away with. <--- coward.
10. Any person who doesn't like to hear the TRUTH is in DENIAL.
11. If they're always defensive when you question behavior- it's more than likely because they are doing something they SHOULDN'T be...
12. Leopards do not change their spots!!! A liar is a liar- as a rose is a rose.
13. If they are acting "sneaky" it's more than like they because they are trying to BE sneaky. (Key word: TRYING) <--- can't slick a can of oil.
and last but certainly not least:
14. Some people are simply comfortable being raggedy as me and my girl Bev put it. If work is involved- they'd rather not. Some people seriously would rather have noodles- over shrimp & lobster...An easy guarantee is all some people need to get by. And that is fine- you just will not be doing it on MY time. It is time that real women acknowledge that and let they asses have that nonsense so you have room for a real man in your life that will cherish you and treat you right- because you are not just #1, but the only 1...
Bottom line- You cannot get played until you start playing yourself. No matter what a person says- if their actions do not back it up: chop it up as hot air and do your thing moving. I learned a couple of valuable lessons in the situation, but the most important was: Never settle for less than you deserve- because eventually a nigga will try to treat you like less than the 110% woman you ARE and try to keep you there if you let him...
If you were honest in your efforts to be a friend to a person, there for them, and more than they ever had and they still didn't appreciate it or they took you and your heart for granted... yeah- you'll hurt a little when you walk away... but everyday is easier and better; PLUS you can look at it this way. You ain't got nobody: lying to you, treating you like dirt, playing games, or keeping up drama. They can take that shit on to someone who don't know any better and LIKE that kind of silliness. You actually start to wonder why in the hell it took you so long to get away from that bullshit anyway... So respect yourself enough to draw the line and say enough is e-fucking-nuff. Grown people have goals, change for the better, and recognize good things when they present themselves. Not keep making the same dumb mistakes. <-- where Nikki grew up.
SOOOooOOO FUCK EM. Move around.
You tried to play a game and lost terribly... Checker players can't play with CHESS queens. *double kisses.. muah- muah* Buh-bye!
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"You can't bring me down- but you sure can... WIPE me down." LoveBScott
"you must not know 'bout me.. you must not know 'bout me..." Irreplaceable- Beyonce
"Tell Everybody THAT you know.. That I don't love you no mo'..." See U In my Nightmares- Kanye- Lil' Wayne

You's A HOE... (See the title of the blog)

2010-01-11T22:33:00.000-08:00

All I am saying is it is these Sideline Ho's that is so busy playing number two to realize they are not the ONE. If the nigga really wanted you and wanted to be with you- he'd leave who he was fucking with alone to be WITH you. Not be trying to sneak, duck, and dodge his way around to see you when he "can". If he gotta start a fight at home to see you- stay out all night and act like he couldn't make it home... it's because he trying to keep shit in the safe box where he is at mostly. It's not cuz he wanna stay at home with you- it's cuz he got someone else he knows he need to save face for, and if she wasn't worth shit he'd plain leave her alone and get with your dumb ass. BITCHES please stop lying to yourself believing everything a nigga tell your dumb ass. Put 2 and 2 together and come up with the answer to the equation. You can't call his phone... you don't know where he stay.. you ain't getting no REAL time.... Yes, it takes two to tango, but it is these simple bitches that make it that much easier for them to act like HOES with your trifling- ok with being on the side HOE asses. Either way... I need you to check yourself and realize that just because you acted like you didn't know.. or knew and didn't care- it doesn't make you any less of a HOE. Actually it makes you a STANK ASS HOE in my book. You and him. You deserve each other. Birds of a feather- sneaky- lying and cowardly bitches. If a bitch called me up and asked me some shit about a nigga- it is my duty to tell you what is up. Not on some vindictive shit either, but on a REAL note... Not beat around the bush so the nigga can KEEP lying... lol See a stupid bitch tried to lie the first time- so now that I "caught" the lie- I bursted her bubble with the REAL 411... yes,the nigga had a girl (and hoe don't act like you ain't know...). Bitch he lived with her (That's why he can't spend the nights with you). Yes he got his ass put out(That's why he calling you so often now..); so NOW he is single and you ain't gotta "take him" because now you can HAVE his sorry ass... From me to YOU. ENJOY. He ain't gone do nothing but the same ass shit to you...lol So i ain't losing nothing of value. in the words of Lewis from IHustleNation.com, "I'm all for passing the problem person to someone else." He can be YOUR problem since apparently you want him so bad and he bringing an "abundance" of joy to your life- LMAO! we'll see how long that joy and happiness last before he ain't causing shit but strife, drama, and pain to your foolish ass... because he is no longer going to do it to me. Have fun with that.
Here is a list for you lost hoes...
If you have a s/o and you out fronting like you ain't got one... (see the title of the blog- and add TRIFLING)
If you wanna front like you ain't know s/he had someone yet you can't get no real time or holidays with the person... (see the title of the blog- and add an IN DENIAL)
If you don't know none of the family and ain't been invited to do so after a while of seeing each other... (see the title of the blog- and add a Regular ol')
If you sitting up lying to yourself and your friends about why you do not know the location that s/he rests...(see the title of the blog- and add SILLY)
If the only thing you can do to contact the person is "text" them... (see the title of the blog- Add DELUSIONAL)
If you have to make a demand that they "stay the night" to show you that you are the only "one"... (see the title of the blog- add SIMPLY PLEASED)

If you have to convince yourself that there IS a good reason that from December 23rd-the 27th- why you was by yourself... BOO- (see the title of the blog- *See #2 addition)

P.S.

I am SO glad I busted his ass in in the mouth months before shit hit the fan for lying to me about a bitch. What u do in the dark will come to light. It felt good too... *muah! That was the best that CAME... LOL Rest in PISS coward ass bitch.

To Be Cheated On or With???

2009-11-22T17:57:00.001-08:00

That is the question...

Nikki
xoxo

Let 'Em Go...

2009-11-05T14:45:00.001-08:00

Sometimes you gotta let folks go...

Dating their friends???

2009-11-05T14:44:00.000-08:00

Am i dating you or your friends???

Doggone Dating...

2009-10-26T11:21:00.001-07:00

There is little rest for the single...

Credit... WTF Is It For???

2009-10-21T00:28:00.001-07:00

A lil' rant about the jacked up credit scene... Oh well

Life's No-No's

2009-10-13T10:43:00.000-07:00

There are some things is life you just don't do... Though there are a million and one things that peeve people, THIS is my top 5. Enjoy...

Nasty, Triflin', Gutterbutt Trollips- LoveBScott

2009-10-11T10:54:00.000-07:00

Hello everyone, just wanted to touch on people who choose to deal with men they believe or KNOW have women. You's trifling. Again, Monica made a song for your kind- it's called 'Sideline Ho'...

Constructive Criticism...

2009-10-06T21:18:00.000-07:00

ou know what worked my little nerve? People who ask for feedback, and when they get it- they get all pissy about it. There is a difference between negative feedback, positive feedback and constructive criticism. I'm going to need people to understand the difference in all of them, and ALSO understand that each and every last one of them are OPINIONS. You see some retard on facebook posted a video of some broad singing a Jazmine Sullivan song- the 'i'm in love with another man' one... and asked for feedback. Now- upon listening in I immediately thought ok are YOU going to sing it.. or are you going to just copy everything Jaz did? Why I said this- was because there was no variation of melody, no uniqueness to the song- long story short Though she had a nice voice, the chick did not make that song her own. So I said in so many words.. "nice copy voice- I'd like to hear your own voice, and flavor of sound opposed to Jaz's. Like ummm Skye townsend, that 16 year old can BLOW... It is your job to make that song your own" So of course a few hours later- she responds on some shit like.. 'Thanks for the compliment! but it's haters like you that'll get me to the top." I about died laughing my ass off like ok.. check time because apparently she didn't know who was on the flip side. First I asked how old was she? because the word 'hater' is so 1997. I then commenced to let her know that " I said you had a nice voice, hating would have been me saying you couldn't sing-which I did not. Then again I could have also told you that you sound like every other singer trying to get a deal out there- mediocre. Either way what I gave you was some pointers on singing a song that belongs to someone else. I heard no variation so I said you sound like you are imitating rather than singing. If you don't want the comments- don't post videos. There are a million singers out there boo, and the problem with "artists" today is they think they are good enough- yeah amongst the likes of Ashanti, Ciara, and whatever other flash in the pan artists are out there today. You want to REMAIN in the industry. An artist that is going to go somewhere is going to take all comments whether they are good or bad and use them for what they are worth- to better themselves. Since apparently you didn't get what I was saying let me translate: You sound nice, you just need to work on your own STYLE. What your assignment for today is, is to look up what constructive criticism means. Be blessed and good luck in your musical career." Cuz with all that attitude- she gonna need more than luck. people are fucking idiots. Just for that- she gets the big 'W'... I promise you she won't get a deal until she accepts how to take the bad with the good and differentiate what she NEEDS to do versus someone just clowning. So if ya'll see a Tanisha Williams- please remind me to update my post and put a "foot in mouth" picture up here; I highly doubt that'll happen tho'. HOLLA.

Why I Am Single...

2009-10-05T19:27:00.000-07:00

I get this question a lot... So I will give you the background of why Nikki is single. STANDARDS <---- that's why.

I was in a so-called relationship where I allowed myself to become something I clearly was not. I allowed things to happen that I was not ok with and I plain was in a state to where I felt that maybe if I stayed and showed that person I cared, things would change. Guess what ya'll... 2 years later NOTHING CHANGED. I was stupid- never in denial. I was being used, abused, and plain disrespected. BECAUSE I ALLOWED IT.

Any man that feels it is ok to put everything and everybody ahead of you- ain't worth it. Any man that feels like they would rather sit in a club than come home to you- ain't worth it. Any man that feels it's ok to entertain 'hoes' when he knows he has a woman- ain't worth it and he ain't no man.
You see- I had to learn the hard way that some people are plain users, and they are also losers- they blame the world for their problems, and want you to be the recipient of their frustration then claim they did whatever else they did because they loved you. BULLSHIT. There ain't NO LOVE in a situation like that! the least someone with nothing can do is treat you right- I couldn't even get that. Wow- what an eye opener.
I know what I am worth, and know my capabilities. I am not going to keep begging someone to treat me like a woman, or love me right- I am not going to act like I am not worthy of being treated properly after everything I have dealt with IN dealing with that person. I'm not a rude bitch, although I should have been and I don't cheat to get back. I hit where it hurts; I'll leave you alone and move on with my life. I simply womaned up to what I wanted and came to the solid conclusion that what I wanted certainly was not going to come from this individual, due to their selfish ways. He was telling me in a million different ways he wanted to be everywhere else, but with me. I just needed to accept it. Point blank- I deserve more and better than that, so I acted on it and dropped his ass like a bad habit. I can be with someone who wants to be with me and be happy. I have no regrets, because I was the woman I was supposed to be- but I promise he's full of regret, wishing he made those simple changes. Now he's just another dude on the 'damn I messed up, and I miss Nikki' list.
The man I intend to be with knows what he has HERE WITH ME and none of the above is better than that. I am a wonderful woman with a wonderful personality. I have a career- 2 of them actually and my head is on right. I have it going on from head to to toe, inside and out. That cat was turning me into an unhappy, insecure- bitch. Then I ran across that video by Lewis Williams, and that was the smack in the head I needed... I am not married to this fool, so why am I trying to stick it out, work it out, help out, do for, through bad, worse and worse??? I was the only one in love trying to get it right; he was ok with the way that fucked off relationship was; thats why that night he didn't feel compelled to bring himself home instead of the club...I realized that was happening, nothing was changing and decided it was either him or me; and I chose me. Period. I will never again allow no dude to dictate how much time, and love I am worthy of. I deserve EVERYTHING I GIVE in return! That all just brought me back full circle to an old saying of mines that I will uphold: "I respect me- you will do the same or you will go away..."

And to top it off- Look at me; I'm sexy as hell- what I look like acting like I'm not????? You better recognize. lol

IHustleNation.com

2009-09-28T23:02:00.000-07:00

Ladies.. and fellas if you need that real reality check you better check my boy Lewis out. He is telling that TRUTH FO YO' ASS. Satellite radio offered him a spot, he needs more than 15K fans.. please help him out!!! He is hot as fish grease. I Hustle Nation... The video below got me hooked!!! Truth- we all need it in our lives.. This video woke my ass up!

IHustleNation.com facebook him too.

New Philosophy On Love...

2009-09-27T13:25:00.000-07:00

Why be in a so-called relationship (or fucked up one for that matter) and be in love by yourself, when you can just LOVE YOURSELF?

It's time to stop settling for shit we do not want. I can say I have done it, and the shit doesn't feel good. I'm irritated all the time, fighting left and right, constantly wondering what's next, and just plain unhappy. I want normalcy and something I can depend on being pretty much consistent. That includes me, quality time, and some real love. All that switching up, fronting, and game playing is for the birds. It will be a glorious day when I finally do meet HIM. Until then- I am watching out- and workin' on loving ME.

How You Gonna Tell Me...

2009-09-26T12:02:00.000-07:00

So I have been going through the motions of trying to figure out what exactly it is this idiot really wants out of this crap we call a "relationship"... This fool actually must believe in his heart of hearts that he can do what he wants and come whenever it's best for him to do so. How you gonna tell me you wish I ain't have nothing to say- yet you give me a million things and reasons to have something to say- EVERY TIME I LOOK UP. How you gonna tell me you don't need me in your ear telling you "what to do", ummm how am I telling you what to do when you can't do anything for me as it is? And how am I telling you what to do when you apparently ain't doing anything I am half ass telling you might get you on a bitch's good side? Well since you ain't hearing me- I ain't tryna hear you. POOF. I know you don't think or believe I am ok with being thought of down your list of things "to do"... come on now. Something has got to give, and I'll tell you what gave up- I did. I answered my own questions:

Why does he do that? - Because he chooses to
Why do you have to hang in the club every second?- Because he chooses to
Why can you do this that and the third then come at me last? CAUSE YOU CHOOSE TO.
Why can you not do what ur supposed to do?- Cause you choose not to...

Do we get the pattern here? He chooses to act an ass, and don't think he'll have any consequences with them. I mean hell why should he think he will? I been letting his ass think that was so this much this far along- He prolly still thinks I'm just mad for now and will get over it and go right back to this same shit.. Oh but today is a new day- I was not supposed to drag this dumb mess into my 28th year as it is... so let's nip this in the bud. Nothing will change until I MAKE THE CHANGE IN MYSELF. So just as he chooses do do whatever- I am choosing to move around and not deal with that bullshit. Because that's all it is- bullshit. You have entirely too many Ain't Got's to be thinking or telling me I need to just "shut up" and deal with your foolishness. Ain't got no job, ain't got no car, ain't got no money, ain't got no place, ain't got no TIME- which in all actuality that is really all YOU GOT to offer, and you act like you AIN'T GOT that either????? Negro please. Fuck you and what you're going through- I'm going get back to myself, and start back dating REAL MEN who GOT something to offer me besides bullshit on a platter. Late.

Birthday...and beyond......

2009-09-21T20:04:00.000-07:00

Sooo, My birthday was a good one.. and for those who don't know it was the 18th... I went to Los Angeles and saw Serani... that was HOT... the pics are on my myspace and facebook... but here is a few. Went to eat at great places and just plain had fun out of San Diego... worked for me!

Me & Bev...

Me & Serani

Serani Performing...

So fast forward to last night- I am always aware of my surroundings... we're out and the 'ho' shows up at the spot last night... in the same ass outfit I last seen her out in months ago. I could see that she was there looking for him. Standing in a spot in the club that you can only be looking for someone at. I guess she was thinking possibly - if I just show up, he'll be on me. No- he's there with his woman buddha- I'mma need you to sit your desperate, 37 year old, cradle robbing ass on down somewhere. Now downtown is all outta her character- I have never seen this broad out and believe I gets out downtown...she's the type that sits in holes in the wall spots. Ratisha spots so to speak...But how about- he said she walked up to him and was like "what's going on?" and he said nothing and walked off...he shot me a message because i was way across the club said 'im done- let's go'... after that I walked past her, looked her dead in the face and kept walking like- how that feel? Then walked out- with him... like yeah bitch...Eat that- you thought he was done with 2 years of true friendship because you didn't like him talking to me? That was your insecurity talking sweetie- you knew he wasn't done when you thought you was stepping on my toes getting at him. FYI- This is the one who swore she took him...lol Had the audacity to call me phone talking about that has been her man for the past year etc etc.. but you haven't realized he ain't never with you? OK. No sweetie- YOU were temporary- YOU were the play thing.. you was just something to do. We broke up temporarily- you should have ensured it was over before you tried to jump all on him and get "territorial"; he never left, knew where he been, and where he STILL is at, and I'll tell ya'll the straight truth- I kept talking to him to spite her ass because this chick used to sit in my face- apparently plotting on my dude...Bitch you knew- check my post- GET YOUR OWN and quit plotting on what you want when it's currently taken. He is not trying to be with you, and by last nights actions...ain't got anything to say to you either. Kick rocks.

THE REAL BLOG...

2009-09-15T21:00:00.000-07:00

http://ATIHIF.blogspot.com/

Hey ya'll just in case u wanna get ur laff on.. I have moved over a few blogs from where I normally blog. Maybe this'll be my new REAL home... lol Enjoy

There Comes A Time...

2009-09-15T18:29:00.000-07:00

As I approach my 28th birthday- there seems to come a time to put the childish things down, and away. You no longer feel the need to ask questions, don't feel the urge to fight, you plain just grow up. The answers we usually attempt to seek from others, because we are afraid of what our own-selves are telling us... is almost-always in our faces. When you get tired of living day-to-day, not knowing what's next, or what drama filled episode you'll have down the line, you begin to change. And with those changes you almost always will see some people in your life adjust too, or plain go away. It isn't much to ask from anyone to be respectful of you and your feelings about life, but when it does become too much to ask- it is time to move. I have packed my last box, and am applying tape. It's time to move from this house.

Nikki

Silly Bitches...

2009-09-13T18:31:00.000-07:00

You know if there is one thing I do not like- it's a silly bitch. I mean we all can act silly from time to time, but if all you do is act silly I need to you go sit in the corner- put the 'DUNCE' hat on, and stay out my way and think about it. Example: about 2 weeks ago, i was out.. lookin' fly as I do when I steps out... and a conversation got turned ugly because the chick swore I said I was better than her. LMAO... I was like.. wow... you think so.. but you know ur kelly blue book value is not high.. never married...5 kids... no job... and stay in a club??? boo- realistically, I am but I never let that fall from my lips. lol. YOU think I am better than you and that OFFENDS YOU. Too bad, so sad- get ya bars up. Moving along...
Bitch you knew he had a woman... I do not like women who deal with other womens men like they ain't know.. Check it- no home number? not knowing where he stays? no answer at 2 am... can't be together in public.. the only thing he do for you is help u get a nut.. if that... Don't know none of the family, never invited... the only people you know if his "friends"... please! If you ain't knowing none of that after 2 months chances are.. he got someone who IS his woman- while your silly ass sitting up thinking you're the ONE. The ones who really amuse me is the ones acting like they got one leg up on the woman because she "had her man"... EEEEENT!!!! You're not one leg up.. you were played, laid, and dismayed... You're still going to be spending the holidays alone. She's still number 1... and you're still trying to get scraps of time from someone elses... Girl please get your own man. Monica made a song for your kind... check it out- it's called SIDELINE HO... Long story short- breaks it down that second place ain't no prize nor do they GET one... you make urself look dumb sitting around trying to TAKE someone elses man, if he wanted to be with you- he'd LEAVE her then deal with you. In which he knows he does not have to- why should he- you're settling for number 2... feel free if that's what you like. moving along. Do not be silly... that's all I'm sayin'.
"You's a hoe.. you's a hoe.. SIDE-LINE-HO... Get your shit together you're making a fool of yourself, it don't matter if he spends the night, his home is somewhere else...."

- Monica- Sideline Ho

Somethin' Diff'rent

2009-09-11T21:31:00.000-07:00

New me... lil Fyah....Whatcha think? Oh that's my pup Roxie...lol

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DAYSHA!!!!

Hair... Hair... Hair...

2009-09-05T10:34:00.000-07:00

As a stylist I love to change up my looks, and HAIR is key to that change sometimes. I absolutely trip on how a certain hairstyle will pull an outfit together to make it look either BLAH or BAM!!! I am a huge fan of big hair.. I love big curly locks, and once in a while sleek and straight is the jam too. I have been very fortunate to get away with almost any hair-do I choose... *whew* Here are a few tips on helping you select a new look-wig, or hair do. Always take into consideration what you DO like about your hair as it is now... Maybe the length, color, etc... What you DO NOT like about your current hairdo, and also what you DO NOT want your new hair to look like. Beware of stylists who push what they want you to wear- on you- opposed to what you WANT. Granted you must take into consideration a stylist may very well have an eye to tell you what is and is not going to look good, but if it is so far off from what you really want- ensure that it is not what you want and EXPRESS that to them as well. I do not like stylists who do not listen! I don't like bangs- so I better not have any a side swoop is fine, but full out bangs?- NO. Just pay attention to what truly looks good on you and you'll be able to get just about any hairstyle you like on you as well. It's about doing what works- not what we want all the time. What's your favorite looks on you? what looks do you not like?

Out Of The Loop & 1 Item Beauty...

2009-08-24T16:55:00.000-07:00

Sorry I have been MIA for a bit folks... but I am back. As you see the title says out of the loop, and I did want to go over a small but important factor in daily rituals of beauty. It is okay to be out of the loop sometimes when it comes to a routine- especially if it's almost daily. Now that may vary when it comes to dieting/excercise and things of that nature- you know your habits when it comes to those things, but I am speaking beauty regimen. Don't be ashamed of your natural beauty, and be too into the makeup bag to allow for a day or two to be out of the loop. I recall a period where I thought almost everyday was somewhat like I HAD to wear some kind of makeup, but even there still never allow yourself to get so used to looking like your "madeup" self that you forget what you do REALLY look like, and be able to love it just as much. I have actually gotten some alter-ego mentality going when I have some "off" days... Granted the "other me" doesn't have a different name, it's just when I see people out and about they look like- Wow, she does exist...lol As much as I love to get made up, and change up my looks, there are days I am plain too lazy to put in the time to apply everything, or anything at all. And I smile in the mirror because I look fine without it. It also allows my skin re-coup to get gunk out my pores, and skin a good breath of unbothered air... One trick that I do have up my sleeve that makes you "look" made up without much of anything. Are you ready for it? You only need 3 things... Please tell me you're really ready... OK... here goes: A pair of lovely lashes (they do not have to be dramamtic at all), lash glue and some tweezers (to apply)! Believe it or not, on a day when I do not feel like applying makeup, but i want a 'feminine' touch... I slap on a pair of falsies, and look all made up simply because my lashes are all prim and lucious... The best part it is takes all of 2 minutes. Don't believe me? Try it... WITH NO MAKEUP- only lashes and you'll have your almost favorite makeup look: None... I call it the Just Lashes look!!! People will be so drawn to looking at your lashes they do not recall you had NOTHING else on... Hmmmm...

If you could only take one makeup item with you for a month long trip, which/what would you take? Mine would definitely be a pair of Lashes.. NO DOUBT.

Until Next Time...

A Shared Response...(Relationships)

2009-08-10T18:32:00.000-07:00

Read a post not too long ago which was the things "men hate that women do"...(And she says.. blog- Bella) On this is I found things like...

- "for me the most annoying thing is a girl who is overly clingy or needy, yet untrusting. like they want u to call 3x a day but if that doesnt go down then they assume the worst and dude is always working to prove something."

- a female with no confidence

- "I dunno that's a difficult one cuz uwant attitude but then u don't want no stank attitude and u don't want super friendly."
"you know what I hate is when they get mad cuz we not spending enough "time" like I'm busy Im not even wit other gurls, just busy. this new level of selfishness I'm so unfamilar with it, like if I like u we gone chill relax! Why we gotta be together EVERY minute?"

Now to chop it up...I responded just like this:
We can let this digest and regurgitate it, and everyone will have their own interpretation of what they got going on in their relationships... True as some men and I say SOME for a reason may be because it is out of the horses.. aka men's mouths. I wouldn't dare call a man a dog. Dog's are actually loyal.*lol*
Anyway, I agree we need to look within if we find ourselves in the same situations, because usually you know BS when you see, smell or step in it. Whether you choose to deal with it or not is entirely up to you. Too often dudes take it upon themselves to make the choice for the woman to deal with his bullshit... that's when the questioning, clingy stuff, and nagging begins. Women are not dolls in boxes you choose to take down and play with when you're ready. If you wanna do your thing, that is all to the goodie, but don't get mad when she's doing her thing too, or try to act like ya'll exclusive and got her waiting at home while you're doing your thing.
I feel a mutual level of respect keeps both parties from getting their wired crossed. Which for some reason men always seem to lack. Don't get me wrong, females do it too, but men are(usually) the main problem in the relationship. (And as Kelis gracefully put it.. it takes two to tango when cheating- Blame them hoes that knew about you and still decided to mess with him.. and his ass for allowing it) Sorry, that's just how goes it.
What most fucked off relationships are missing is that one key point: COMMUNICATION. Period. When you say exactly what you mean, and your actions say the same- there is no room for misunderstandings. Don't sleep with a dude on the first night and not expect him to think you do it often. Don't tell the girl you don't want nothing serious, then wanna hang all up under her, worried about how many numbers she got, or who she fukkin'... IOW- If you didn't want nothing serious, don't front like you do (verbally or non verbally) If your ass ain't gonna show up til 5pm... say so don't tell my ass 2 and have me waiting on you. If you wanna see other people... say so- so she's am not missing out on Ruth Chris with someone who CAN afford it...lol though I can take myself.. i'm just sayin'... yet again waiting on your ass.
Whether they want to admit it or not, they know you can almost ALWAYS do better than them, because womens options are always more than mens(and they hate that shit because they are trying to pick and choose and compare at ALL times...).... unless his ass look like Halle Berry or some shit.
To read more check her out Bella's Blog

Niks

Does Your Inner Beauty Match The Outer???

2009-08-02T08:36:00.000-07:00

There has been a thought that I have had often times, and I am now going to pose it. How many times have you seen someone male or female and said to your self, "She's really pretty, but her attitude makes her not so cute..." or "He's ok looking but he has a great personality"? Now generally this type of comment sits with a female being cute, but a nasty attitude can put a dimmer on her beauty. However, I have noticed a woman that may not be over the top beautiful "looks wise" but has an outstanding personality and a great aura about herself outshines plain pretty any day. Does your inner attitude match your outer beauty? There have been many time where I have been nasty acting with an attitude, and noticed it didn't get me anywhere. Of course this is when I was younger, but now that I have grown up, I realize that we must project the energy we want in return. Granted this energy is not 100% fool-proof, because there will be some unwanted attention, or whatnot, but the woman in you will definitely know which battles to let be, and nasty attitude battles are one of them. Allowing yourself to see the sunshine in almost any situation and remaining positive in a bunch of negativity... Show the world your beauty, confidence and talent in a humble manner... That is when true beauty shines. Again I ask, does your inner beauty shine as much as your outer?

Until next time...

Kissable Lips...

2009-07-25T11:46:00.000-07:00

We all love lucious lips.. well most of us do anyway. What are some of you favorite lip products? As for myself M.A.C's lipglass will alwys have the numbr one spot. Wuth items like Lipglass & Dazzleglass you simply cannot go wrong. Of course the original Lipglass is sticky, but jeeze do you get any glossier? To keep lips supple ensure you drink plenty of water, and also renenber that a slight exfoliation on the lips with a "toothbrush or "scrub style" cloth in gentle circular motion remoed dried lips, helping them maintain a unchapped look. What are some of you favortie lip products?

Tell Em Why U Mad Son...

2009-07-15T18:34:00.000-07:00

Actually nothing to be mad about. I'm more disgusted in "human" behavior than ever before... You know I pondered for about 5 minutes... (Yeah 5.. doesn't take me long to gather thoughts fools. ) and I cannot for the life of me understand why people are so damn dumb. I mean there are some genuinely smart people out there and I don't understand why it's such a bad thing to be- educated...employed.. doing right...being faithful.. or hell plain not dumb enough to keep making the same mistakes. Though we are all guilty of repeating things, or doing things we shouldn't. But eventually get tired of the same responses, and move on from it... What I don't understand people who make indisputable dumb choices. EXAMPLE:
1. You have a guy/girl who does right by you, treats you well and helps you out when you have nothing... Down to giving you somewhere to stay even when your so-called friends ain't got a couch to offer you.
Dumb move: Cheating on them with somebody who had NOTHING like just like you. How about you make a move that's going to elevate your situation... not put you back on the streets... Ain't no coochie or ding-a-ling worth me being homeless. Sorry- it ain't that serious.
2. You have an opportunity to get around people who make things happen, have careers, and are trying to be positive in their lives. Making moves while you see it...They also, share that knowledge with YOU.
Dumb move: Saying you would never want to be a sistah/brother who wears a tie to work, and you can't do that. However would rather hang around a bunch of gang affiliated idiots who might make all of a quick buck or quick money, by either selling "fruit-cock-tail" on the corner, or "white girl" (cuz ain't no REAL money in weed people; unless you MOVING some sh*t- let's not front)are in and out of jail constantly. <-- that's the crowd u prefer to hang with????? You're not hanging with the right ones because guess what? the ones who IS moving it like that prolly hanging around the people with real jobs LMAO. *SMH*
3. You have the opportunity to be real. Period. The person has shown you that you are not slick and cannot get much past them. It's like mama's- they just know and eventually will have all her ducks in a row to be like BAM!!!! Remember- you can be found out, and the point is they're smarter than you- stop lying when you're not that smart. If you're that messy in whatever it is you're doing- you're better off being honest. Especially if you can't get away with more than a week of activity before being found out. ** NOTE: Sorry it is how it is- some folks are simply smarter than you are- it's not cocky or mean; it's truth and more than likely... when you're busted repeatedly- it's because that other person is smarter than you. Sorry it's just how it is.
Dumb move: lying when proof's in tha puddin'. How dumb can you really be?
4. You get beat over the head with life lessons- 'til you get it.

Dumb move: not learning from those lessons. Again, we're all guilty of being beat over the head with a lesson more than once.. but all-in-all there was and is a lesson in all of it. Your job is to learn from it and emerge a better person. Learn people... When will you learn???
Point is.. be real with yourself folks... When the truth is too much for you- it's because you're fake. Fake people are in denial about real sh*t. They deny knowing the truth. They deny knowing what was up. They deny knowing it was someone else in the picture..even when they don't know their home numbers or where they live... Fake people say they didn't call opther people when the number is on the bill.. People are plain fake as Beyonce's hair in the 'Ego' video- (which is off the chain though...lmao). Stop. Drop. Roll in some real paste- sit in the sun and let it BAKE....then get the fuck on. One saying about muh-self... since 1997- Nikki is never in denial. if I did it I fucking did it. I'm not going to lie to you or sugar coat it. That way I ain't gotta keep up with no stories. That take up too much time, and eventually I might run into someone that's smarter than I am...
"That's Sheisty... That's Backstabber...and the little one.. that's.. that's Pickpocket"...

- The Mad Rapper

60 Days of RX for Brown Skin...

2009-07-15T16:58:00.000-07:00

Hello all,
Though I have been gone for a hot second... I am back. Reviewing the RX for Brown Skin line by Dr. Susan Taylor. I am going to go over what I have seen, and noticed with this great line.

So, I purchased this regimen about a bit over 2 months ago, and I want to break down exactly what I have seen with consistent use of the whole regimen. I mean yes- everyday without missing any. Immediately, I felt softness in my skin, and 60 days later I still continue to have that softness that makes you want to touch on your own face all day. Now we know that is not good, as it can lead to break outs, but hey- a touch here and there won't kill ya. *lol* The second most noticeable effect after using the regimen was the overall texture improvement that was VISIBLE. Believe it or not, our mirrors can trick us into seeing things we thought did, or did not exist. Once you get in proper light, and a crisp-clean mirror boy does the truth shine through! The whole texture of my skin, like the feel was softer. An airbrushed look if you will. The area on my face which had defiant little "wrinkly patches" (from irritability, or plain dryness) seemed to blend in a whole lot better, smoothed and evened. As far as the blotchiness or deep hyperpigmentation goes, I have seen some improvement. Nothing drastic to swear off any other possible aids, but an improvement. The blotchiness is less noticeable, whereas I used to look in the mirror and zoom in on the areas of hyperpigmented skin; So this is definitely a plus.

So what's the verdict? I think i'll keep the RX regimen. Seems to be working for me, especially in conjunction with the Clarisonic. If I have seen this much improvement in 60 days who know's what'll change in another 60? I want to reinterate what consistent use means. It means without fail- morning and evening regimen. You are allowed to miss a day or two without your regimen, because we all get lazy, but you must get back on the horse!!! Otherwise you're sitting at a whole week without your skin care in line, and then you're being counter productive to your own results. So, don't do that to yourself, or the product (which you'll end up bashing because of laziness...lol*) As stated in previous blogs it takes about 3 months of continuous use of almost ANY product to see DEFINITE results. I am satisfied at 60 days with current results- so i'll definitely be keeping the RX line. Thank you Dr. Susan Taylor.

Until Next Time...

Back In Action...

2009-07-13T17:36:00.000-07:00

OK folks.. So now that i have moved and settled into my new place I just wanted to leave an open welcome to suggestions on products or things you would like reviews on. Posting on the 2 month status with RX for brown skin soon.

Nikki

Random Thoughts Vol. 9

2009-07-12T18:35:00.000-07:00

Hello people... I have decided to randomize some stuff into an Anthony Hamilton- point of it all type feeling. Instead of that, I am asking what's the point??? What's the point of wanting to stay in a relationship you don't WANT? Is it boredom? Comfortable- or just too damn lazy or cowardly to just say this shit is NOT what I want... and keep it moving? What's the point of those friggin debt consolidation places? A friend applied, and got denied because their credit wasn't the greatest... WTF why do you think they applied? To consolidate bills and get themselves and that mess back on track. What is the point of getting financial/credit help if you need "good credit" to get help!?!? Then another blemish on their credit for applying and getting denied *smh* This is why I say fugg 'em. When I fell in the hole when I wasn't working- I notified all my open accounts of what was going on- some were willing to work with me- others were not. And guess where those who were not are at right now? At the end of the line in getting paid. Why? Because I'll be damned I pay you a "minimum" of 600 dollars because I missed four payments and you know exactly why. Yeaaaah I know- but your credit Nikki- it's already screwed because it's going to show delinquent ANYWAY- so why should I miss out on that cute outfit I saw that my baby girl can wear???? They'll get their money-when I feel like paying them. Matter of fact I might wait long enough to just be like all I got for ya is 1 G- take it or leave it. Them idiots would settle too they know it'd prolly be hell and high water getting a number like that again from me. Anyways, what's the point of not living your life to the fullest? I intend to do exactly what Martin said- with the exception of my child's savings, my own stash, regular living expenses- i'mma ride this mutha til the wheels fall off. Bet that!!!

"Who am I living for.... question existing..."- Rihanna

Movin'...

2009-07-06T19:14:00.000-07:00

Taking a quick break to complete this thing called a "move..." I hate moving!!!! hope you beauties are doing your thing... Positive!!!

An Ode to Urban Decay...

2009-06-27T09:27:00.000-07:00

For those who happen to know the latest love of my life comes in the form of a lovely silver tone with purple accents. Yes folks.. I'm talkin' Urban Decay... I stumbled upon this precious jewel of a brand while I was on a straight mission to revamp my makeup collection. M.A.C. had fulfilled it's destiny and I grew weary of 'I thought this worked good' items. From UD's primer potion, to the luxe shadows, and 24/7 liners which glide on so perfect and smooth; I have yet to try a cosmetic from them that I did not like. My latest addition to my already too darn steep collection is the lipstick and Urban Decay's most popular selling titled item (color as well) is- Midnight Cowboy... I have the shadow and now the lucious lipstick! It is a shimmering beige tone that goes awesome with a high gloss, or alone.

Before I even think about putting an shadow on- no matter who the manufacturer is.. The primer potion must go on the lids. This allows crease-free, long wearing shadows with vibrant colors to STAY.

On my eyes, the most beautiful... with the title of 'Roach', which sounds absolutely disgusting... is the most gorgeous color I have encountered in a long while! It's usually hard to find reddish brown colors that don't have too much of either. This was the perfect combination and worked wonderfully as a crease color!!!

When Im feelin' oily, or like my makeup simply needs a boost.. I reach for my De-Slicked blot powder. Though the color is almost white with a hint of lavender tone, it goes on colorless and picks up all the oil...making your make up look fresh a while longer. Who doesn't want that!? It also doesn't hurt that it comes in a gorgeous compact. I have dropped this thing a ton of times and havenever had the power fall or crack up- nor the case. Definitely worth every penny!

Do you remember the days when you used to have to burn the tip of your eyeliner to get it to glide? Oh but let us not forget you had to wait about 30 seconds after you did that for it to solidify itself again or else you'd have not only a mashed up pencil, but a mess on your eyelids. Those days are forever gone with 24/7 Glide-on Liner. These pencils are the truth! They go on true to color and don't wipe off too easily. However, when it is time for it to come off... & They do come off without having to rub your eyes out!

For those women of color who say, 'What the heck do I need a bronzer for? I have enough color....' I thought the same thing for a while until I took a look at my pictures when I wore makeup and looked almost like there was no warmth to my skin tone. I didn't look pale but it looked like something was missing! Until I found this wonderful Baked Bronzer...in, 'Toasted'. Now, this doesn't give you that fake lookin' sun BURNT glow with way too much shimmer although I am sure they have that as well. However, if that's what you're lookin' for- this ain't the one for you. I just needed a hint of warth that was matte, and that is exactly what I got with this and I love it!

As you all know I must pencil my no eyebrow having self up with faux ones *lol* This wax with the Brow Box is awesome! After I use an angle brush to apply the brow, I go over it with the wax that is contained at the bottom pop out drawer, and voila! No more rubbed off eyebrows, and it darkens them a bit to make them more noticeable. The box also comes with a nice little applicating angle brush, and small, small, small tweezers. Just in case there is hair, that shouldn't be there. Ingenious!!!

When I am not wearing lashes, I like to front like mine can hang with the big gals.. well with the Multi-benefit Skyscraper mascara... they actually can. Oddly enough when a rep at Sephora showed me the tube, and was going to use some on a customer i did the same thing I normally do, as i have no brows, or lashes *lol* I though, 'what the ufck-ever..." until I saw him apply it... OMG! Yes... it is now in the collection and I love how it curls and lifts lashes while making them that much longer- which is definitely a BENEFIT to me!

When it's all said and done, and this girl is done having fun... All this stuff HAS to come off. Now I reach for my Clean & Sober makeup remover... This cleanes all my makeup off without the hard rubbing or sting. Smells wonderful while doing what it's supposed to. Though it's definitely one to reckon with MUFE's Sens-Eyes.. it does a darn good job second to. Either way it works.. wonderfully at that.

The point of it all is Urban Decay makes some FANTASTIC products! if you haven't given them a try- please do when you get an opportunity. This was my ode.. hope you liked it and saw something you want to give a try.

Until next time...

Beautiful Lies...

2009-06-21T06:52:00.000-07:00

And we're off!!! I decided to do a section dedicated to the myths that surround beauty, and hair. There is so much information out there on how to do this and that, or why this that and the third isn't working. Again, I emphasize we are all different but there are common rules that need to be laid down in order to understand and decipher what is and is not real when it comes to beauty... I will explore the top 3 (in my opinion) myths when it comes to beauty and hair... Shall we???

Myth #1. In order to have healthy hair you can't relax it. - Some people use the word "perm" but it's called relaxer. Now to the nitty gritty. Healthy hair is attainable no matter HOW you wear your hair. It's all about maintenance. If you get a relaxer, you must maintain it. Period. Otherwise you're asking for breakage, and damage. And another thing... Your hair needs to be healthy before you get a relaxer anyway. See the pic on the left. Why put a chemical on damaged hair??? It is not in the condition it needs to be in to handle a chemical anyhow. Blame the bad stylist who put it on you, and yourself for allowing it, and then blaming the product!!! The product didn't damage your hair, bad practice did. The purpose of the relaxer is to 'loosen the curl'- not to make it straight. If the hair is straightened too much- it is OVERPROCESSED, and now porus. Which can also occur in coloring hair as well. See the pic on the right. Yes, your hair is in a more healthy state when it's natural, but if you do not know how to care for your natural hair, it'll break, and get damaged just like chemically processed hair. MAINTAIN your hair, and you'll have healthy hair. Period.

Myth #2. I can color my hair by box and it'll be fine. First, let's briefly go over how "PERMANENT" color works. There are 10 levels when it comes to color... 1 being black, and 10 being blond. In between is 5- red... Now when coloring hair you must understand what you can and CANNOT do (and maintain healthy hair...) In order for someone who has darker hair to go to a lighter color you must lighten your hair. Whether is it by "bleach" or a high volume peroxide. The color that is in the darker hair must be LIFTED.

<---- If you don't understand this wheel. DO NOT try to color your own hair!!!!! Meaning, you cannot slap a red color on top of your dark tresses and expect the color on the box. No sweetie, you'll have hints of red on your dark hair that may only be visible in the light. Blondies... no you can't just slap red on your head and think it'll be red either. You have a yellow tone, so your hair will turn orange... you need violet to cancel out yellows and green to cancel out red tones etc etc etc. And no you cannot color your hair jet black, and go back blond. Not without a pair of scissors you won't. Color does not lift color!!! Point is folks:If you do not understand how color works, or how the color wheel does play a HUGE role in the tones, and colors you'll get... leave hair coloring to the professionals. P.S. Box colors have lots of ammonia. Though there are some that don't but there are many more that do, and that ammonia is no bueno for your hair, that leaves an ashy cast on the hair when you finish. Henna is nice, but you must be careful with it as well, as it is a metallic. Relaxers and metallics are no go.

#3. It doesn't matter what kind of shampoo I use. OOOOHH contraire mu-fraire... There are not so many shampoos out there for so many purposes for no reason. Brands? That's on you to choose, but nothing less than the best for this beauty nut. Kera Care, Enjoy, Kenra, and fifty million other awesome lines out there. The key is finding what is going to work for your hair! Someone with fine hair shouldn't be using a moisturizing shampoo unless they have dry scalp: why? Because this will weigh their already fine hair down even further and make their hair stick to their heads. Use lots of product? A Clarifying shampoo would be best because it cleanses without stripping the hair of what it needs. Believe it or not many people think they have dandruff when they really don't. Shedding of the skin cells happens on the head just like anywhere else on the body. The best way to a nice fresh scalp is to use a comb to "get up" that skin prior to shampooing... that is sticking to the head, so that when you shampoo you also get that skin off your scalp! Viola! No Dandruff!!! And yes, conditioning is essential. Conditioning keeps the hair supple, detangles, and as long as you choose the right kind- helps maintain healthy hair.

How do you know all this Nikki??? Well let's see... did I mention I'm licensed stylist with ethics and I believe in educating clients? A stylist that just 'does your hair' and doesn't give vital information like 'RED is high maintenance' or have ethics like, 'your hair is a bit too damaged for chemical treatment...' is not a very good stylist.

Here are some things to look for in your stylist:

1. Professional- yet friendly.

2. Consults with you about the condition of your hair, and where you want to go with it.

3. Listens to what you want in a style but also informs you of what is and is not flattering. helps you make decisions on what's best for YOU- your hair, lifestyle, and maintenance.

4. Is not only out to make a quick buck, but have a lifetime client- because they are just that good at what they do: resulting in what you love, a head of healthy hair, and knowledge of how to maintain that beautiful hair in the event they are not availible.

Just know that I does this. OK... Now that we've covered that... On to the Make-up Myths...

Myth #1. People who wear makeup don't like how they look. Now if you wear so much makeup you no longer look like YOU- then maybe you're wearing "too much." The purpose of makeup is to enhance your already there features. False lashes, lip plumpers, and things of that nature are extras. They don't change you. they enhance. I love how I look...

Myth #2. Men like women who do not wear make up. *ROTFLMBAO..hahah hahhahhah hahahhh ...ok.. hehh..lol.. ok ok... ok...* Whew, had to catch my composure. For the record I just wanna say that's BUH-SHYT. I believe men prefer the "natural look" but believe you me- that's makeup made to look natural often times. Who wants to wear a fierce dress and look "natural"? Umm yeah glam is for glam wear, and for some glam is daily. It's up to you though! I have said before that it is a talent in wearing make up- Not looking like you have it on. I promise you if you ask a man who his top five women who are up there on their look good list is- chances are they are "made up" in some way... If a man say he don't like make up that's probably because he don't want you getting looks and/or attention from any other guys; Ask me how I know. *ding* No, it's not that you're not naturally beautiful, makeup simply plays up your features. Period. Nothing more- nothing less. If anything- a man should be happy you take the time to polish yourself up, so you're looking your best, and he's the one who has YOU on his arm. Taking over an hour may indicate a problem though *lol* SO- Yes, ladies wearing only eyeliner, lipgloss, and mascara still constitutes you wearing MAKE UP budda. Stop livin' in denial and explore some other items to perfect your 'natural' look. Here's natural looks... but guess what? They are still wearing makeup.

I never said you should look like you work at M.A.C... then again that wouldn't be a bad thing anyway that says you got skillz... sometimes. *lol*

Myth #3. I can't wear makeup because... Kill the excuses ladies. MEN wear makeup see http://www.rupaulsdragrace.logoonline.com/better than us sometimes. Yes, both of the pix below are MEN... Kill your excuses ladies.

OK! Prescriptives blends for your tone. Many ways of coverage powder, liquid, mineral. Need sunscreen? Heck it's in a lot of foundations and products these days. There are consultants all over Sephora, M.A.C., and Macy's counters. ASK for help if you need it. I promise you nobody came out the womb knowing how to apply their perfected shadow. Practice, be prepared to wipe it off and start over if it wasn't the look you wanted... get good products (for you) and see what works and doesn't work for YOU. Either way- stop with the excuses! Beautify your outside to match your inner beauty. There is no such thing as "day/night" make-up. Make-up is about fun and enhancing your representative, and goodness- making a lasting first impression on the world. How many people that you do not know- will walk by you today? Exactly. You may very well not care what they think, but I know what they won't be saying about Nikki. Goes like this: "Damn she was lookin' fugged up." *lol*

Until next time...

Just So Ya'll Know (off topic)

2009-06-17T00:02:00.000-07:00

My life is like a damn reality show sometimes.. This blog is dedicated to beauty, and things of that nature... But if you want a dose of Nikki Smooth- Raw & in living color... Scream at me on myspace: nikkay2desire

Bathing Beauty...

2009-06-14T08:48:00.000-07:00

There is nothing more relaxing than a good shower and/or bath. I have a tendency to take a nice shower and scrub the tub before soaking in a bubble bath or just soaking. Either way, we all have our routines, but what's used is also different. I have a ridiculous amount of bath items, which go beyond lathering. I am a LUSH fanatic! The first time I stumbled across this wonderful store I was in London... Good ol' UK. Fell in love with every scent that was there for my nose to smell. Not only is this stuff scented beautifully, it makes bathtime fun, and yes something to look forward to even more. Here are a few of my favorite Lush items.

1. Blue Skies and Fluffy White Clouds Bubble Bar

This Bubble bar works wonders and smells amazing! Relax in the blue water while the aroma does it's thing. Patchouli!!! MMMmmMM. Very relaxing and one bubble bar goes pretty far. I get about 4 baths out of one bar, and my skin is scented for hours. I like this bath after a tiring day, as it relaxes me like nothing else. Check out their other bubble bars like, Hot milk, Two Timing Tart, and The Comforter.

2. This is the SEX BOMB- aka a bath bomb that smells delightful! I have never had such a lovely bath until I met LUSH. The bomb begins to fizzle one it is plopped into your tub of water. Scents the water and this particular bomb is scented with lots of Jasmine!!! Try this and a few other great bath bombs. I love Sakura, Butterball, and of course Big Blue. They even have Ickle Baby bomb and Baby devil for children which contain lavender.

3. The Sultana of Soap- I bought this soap actually thinking it maybe wouldn't be my favorite bar soap but was Nikki surprised!!! Now my favorite among soaps... Creamy with a hint of fruit such as apricots, cranberry and currant. This soap is the shiz-nit! When i say it leaves the most awesome smell on you- that's what the heck I mean. This among many other soaps like Snowfairy, The Godmother, Rockstar, and Honey I Washed The Kids make bath and shower an experience to behold.

These are just a few products from Lush that I absolutely LOVE. Check them out at http://www.lush.com/ and try a few new things out. Their fresh face masks are awesome too. Though you probably need to get ahold of some of those in an actual store (for those who are so lucky to live near one.) I use 'Sacred Truth' which does justice to a tired face. It is true- I traveled all the way from San Diego to Santa Monica to get ahold of Lush items... Sure I could order them online, but that would take away from the store experience... *sigh* What are some of your favorite bath items?

Until Next Time...

Crimes in Facial Care & Makeup...

2009-06-05T06:27:00.000-07:00

I was simply surfing the web for new content and happened to think along the lines of my recent post about product reviews. I ended up doing a review on Sephora.com about a product by Smashbox, called 'eye illusion'. The purpose of the almost pale, barely there colors is to create new colors, or if your skin allows- to be worn alone.

I have said it once, and I will say it again; There are some genuinely crappy items out there, BUT most bad reviews come from improper use, or not using the product for what it was intended for. Today I'm going to go over a few 'crimes' (in my humblest opinion) to help relieve some product bashing.

Facial Care Crimes- 'Cuz you just need to know

If you know your skin is oily, why are you using a moisturizing moisturizer??? How about you use an 'Oil-Control' moisturizer? Different strengths, formulas, and pretty color bottles are for that purpose.-Different needs.

If your skin is easily irritated- it wouldn't hurt to try the patch test on a hidden part of your skin to ensure you don't have a reaction 24-48 hours after use of the product. Better to wait 2 more days before trying something that may possibly have your skin looking worse than what it started at; then saying you had a BAD reaction to the product.

Dry skinned people- if you do not exfoliate almost every other day and moisturize daily why are you complaining that your makeup looks dry? I know this first hand.

Weather changes, or skin changes require- change in your regimen as well. Yeah- it actually does- so stop complainin'.

Makeup CRIMES- These are the Stop go to jail- directly to jail- do not pass 'Go' nor collect $200 crimes.

YES, you need to moisturize before applying makeup. Allow your pre-makeup routine to have time to absorb if you feel oily. I confess the reason I previously did not apply moisturizer before makeup is because I felt like that stuff was going to make my makeup look oily. Indeed immediately applied afterward it does. Give your last item at least 10 minutes on your skin before applying your makeup- otherwise what do you expect to look like? Nothing for the skin to drink makes it attempt to drink the makeup. This in turn is why your makeup is sinking into your pores making your skin look dried out or look like a bad application. Adding moisture gives the pores their drink, and lets the makeup stay true to your skin, and actually helps it look better and last longer. No moisture is a CRIME!!!

Fading shadow or it won't stay put? Hmmm how about using a good base? Urban Decay's Primer Potion is the truth, and if you've got oily lids try Too Faced- Shadow Insurance. I almost promise that your eye make up won't go anywhere, or crease for at least 5 or 6 hours. Though I have worn mine longer without either happening until I TOOK it off- I only can place so much faith in a product! It really upsets me that I just found these items because now that I look back on older pictures where my makeup was off the hook- I used way too much product and it still faded because I didn't have or was not wearing a great base. Eyeshadow without base is a CRIME!!!

Skin bumping up because of your makeup? Well, I'm going to need you to thoroughly cleanse your face; Especially after wearing makeup. I probably wash my face 4 times after I have worn makeup. Due to the fact your skin kinda goes into GANXTA MODE while you sleep, those products if you did not get the majority of them off, can get into your pores an can cause a breakout. Yes, you may be tired from partying, but Better to stay up an extra 5 minutes, than wait a week for a breakout to clear up fully. Non-thorough cleaning is a CRIME!!!!

BLACK LIPLINER- NO, NO, NO... unless you are an avant garde model in a show; which 20 times out of ten you are not- Don't do this-for it is a CRIME!!!

What are your no-no's and crimes when it comes to fashion and beauty???

Until Next Time...

Soft-Spoken Eyes... How To Do them...(tutorial)

2009-06-04T09:52:00.000-07:00

Starting with a clean and yet again, booger free eye. Apply a primer to the entire eye.

After you have applied the base. Apply a light pink shadow across the eye lid, as before 3/4ths of the way up.

Now apply a dark brown shadow to the crease to show depth.

Now, BLEND DAMN YOU!!!

After you have finishes blending use a small shadow brush to add the highlight on the eyebrow.

After blending all colors you should again have a gradient look from top to bottom.

You know I must draw my eyebrows on *lol*. Lastly ensure it is well blended and to make the colors stand out. I apply a hot pink after blending to make the pink stand out a bit more. Finally a nice Black line of liquid liner.

And there you have it... Brown w/Pink...Hope this helped.

Until Next Time....

Shimmering...

2009-05-31T10:53:00.000-07:00

No, I have not abandoned you all; I was just on a quick hiatus. And Ms. Clsssy your tutorial is next up. PROMISE. I want to address some bronzing and shimmer items that are all that and some! It is sometimes hard to find a nice shimmer for your skin wihout walking around looking like a flippin' disco ball. That is not the look most of us are going for, but maybe some don't know any better. Let me introduce you to my newfound friend: Shimmer Brick for Body by Bobbi Brown. Now, originally I looked at the price on this beautiful piece of uhhhh sparkly goodness... and my eyes about fell out my head at a whopping $75.00 price tag. I was thinking to myself- this brick can't possibly be all that. Oh, but was I foolish to doubt the ever shimmering powers of this tool. Have you ever wanted a soft glow, or bronze without looking like too much sparkle is on you, or just a dewy look to your everyday shine? Well, this is it! With an oven baked contraption of makeup and it gives your skin a sun-kissed glow that is UNTOUCHABLE!!! It doesn't look fake or overly shimmery, just enough sheer coverage to give the skin, face, and body enough glow... It was love at first application. NOW the brush I can do without- it cost more than the brick... $85.00??? WTBF??? How about... no? Yes Bobbi, the brush is soft, and all that gooey jazz goodness, but the brick already costs an arm; the least you could have done, especially since this is supposedly "limited" was throw in a decent quality brush to apply the wonderous shimmer for free-99. Let's keep it really real... in my humble opinion the over priced brush pulls too much dust off the shimmer brick and is actually quite messy. That could be because it's rounded, so you feel the need ot rub all into it... No, I'm not hating on the brush, I'm just amazed that the already rapist price doesn't include a decent brush. nope you just take it- no vaseline... *lol* NOW... here is my new brick's companion, and it didn't cost my left lung... Jeeze.

Yes, the Big Budda Brush by Urban Decay, works perfectly with my brickfor $36.00 and it is also soft taklon hair, and ANTI-BACTERIAL. You can't beat that with a stick!!! I have just been getting so many awesome items, and it's almost like there isn't enough time in the day or week to use all of it, but eventually I will. However, I think I found my daily glow with this one here... I LOVE this shimmer brick. I highly suggest you add this to your collection. I promise it'll become you favorite daily accessory soon enough.

Until next time...

The Truth About Most Cosmetic Reviews...

2009-05-23T14:38:00.000-07:00

I do believe most people should look into reviews prior to purchasing a product; especially if it costs a pretty penny. The truth of the matter is- we're all different so what one raves about someone else is going to think is GARBAGE.

I laugh all the time when I read the "ridiculously bad" reviews on products. Most of those are user error in application or how to use the product, and also a lot of the time, not taking the time to read about the product and what it's specialty really is. I have never had a product that I was like- HORRIBLE... Why you ask? Because I (try to) never buy something before I try it. Period. When you purchase things that are backed by a good return policy- they most than likely also allow you to try it. Why not try it first? DUH... that's what the testers are for.

Who in the hell just sees a product, a tester right there, doesn't try it and says I want that- then complains about it? Idiots do...That's who. You got what you paid for. It is not the company's fault that your skin is retardedly dry or oily. So don't bash the company for not being able to tame your oily face or your sahara desert patches...

Instead of looking for the quick fix- Find a cleanser that targets that, and a product you can live with until it is corrected or at least at bay. There is no quick fix to a lot of our problems, but more of a range of things that can assist while you TREAT the original issue. Things like oiliness is usually sebum glands producing too much oil, and believe me; there are products out there that help and yes even oily people need to use a moisturizer. the skin is over producing because it is deprived. I just wanted to point that out because online while looking for new products to review, and try I always run across some janky reviews on fantastic products. Some are legit complaints- walks like a duck talks like a duck... But most of the time- it's rants from people who don't know where to start. Out out of 100 reviews- 6 are bad and bashing the hell out of the product. Then you read on to find out these people have problematic skin, or issues that that mighty little product was not meant to fix. People need to read.

Though I know it's all personal opinions and we are entitled to them; I just want to point out majority of the people who do shop at these stores, online, and department stores haven't a clue about makeup, skin conditions, or what is really the issue they need to correct for everything else to work in accordance with their "makeup". The best thing to having your makeup look great is a great canvas, and if all you're doing is slapping makeup on top of other problems to quickly make it 'look' good- you're headed for even bigger problems. Fix the main issue, then move on to smaller "fixes".

Until next time...

Oh M.A.C... Am I Falling Out Of Love With Thee...???

2009-05-18T21:23:00.000-07:00

I am at work and decided to do a bonus blog... As a few of you know I have always been a M.A.C. fanatic, and know that they are a "superior" makeup brand. Well- sometimes they are superior. I just have lately been on this rampage at other places, and especially Sephora, which has placed a ridiculous amount of other fantasic products in one place...and at my flipping fingertips! What's a girl to do???

Though there are some products that I will never abandon M.A.C. for such as my 'Pinch Me' blush, Fix +, and my dazzleglass/lipglass; Ol' Nikki has gone astray from the foundation and yes, even some of the eyeshadows. Though there are some shadows you'll find nowhere else but M.A.C. like 'Shimmer'- Jeeze that color is just beautiful! It just seems as though none of the foundations provided coverage I needed without it feeling like I had tons of it on. Heck- sometimes at the cost of looking like it as well. *sigh* Their shadows, could simply need replacement, but my colors still go on fantastic. So there is nothing wrong with them... I think I'm just over the 'it must be M.A.C.' phase.

Though their products render outstanding reviews, I am no longer impressed. I used to get excited to see the latest celeb promoting it, and what colors were coming next... I got extra happy when I received those invites to M.A.C special events for upcoming collections. Alas, I no longer get excited in the mall when I see a M.A.C. store, I no longer feel the urge to simply go inside and test anything on my skin. I simply do not get moist when M.A.C. is whispered in the air. I just feel the affair is over, and it's time to move on to the other products that are just as great if not better... I'll be seeing you around old faithful M.A.C... I loved you...

Sincerely,

Nikki T.

My Gotta Haves...

2009-05-17T09:58:00.000-07:00

So we all are different... yeah we know. *lol* I just wanted to share some recent purchases and some new faves of mine... Shame isn't it? At my most recent Sephora rampage- I found some items that absolutely and positively blow my mind and already cannot live without! It is so hard to find diversity in your products, but that I have found... Shall we???

Oh my goodness. This stuff makes my skin feel FABULOUS!!! by Juice beauty. This is organic and an antioxidant...which helps with those blemishes, and spots you get here and there. Gotta have it. $45.00 <---Worth every penny.

The colors in this palette by URBAN DECAY... If these don't have ridiculous pigment... then I don't know what pigment is. The only other company I have seen thus far in Sephora that had pigment like this is Make Up For Ever... $38.00 <---Cop that unit.

Speaking of Make Up For Ever... This HD foundation is the shiznit in all areas. Unlike my recently retired, and deceased M.A.C. studio fix, this one is very lightweight with a whole lotta coverage. I need that with my blotchy skin... Though I love M.A.C- M.U.F.E. has them beat hands down, and the photo outcome using this product is- incomparable. $40.00 <--- Pricey but well worth it!

And while I'm on M.U.F.E. this micro finish powder is the shyt on top of the HD or all alone. Pure Silica evens and smooths the skins texture and appearance. You can apply this before-or-after make-up or wear it alone for a soft finish on the face. A definite must have! $30.00 <----Yes, 30, but a little powder goes a long way.

So I decided to go ahead and buy into the hype that this URBAN DECAY eyeshadow primer potion was the end be all of your eye shadow staying on or creasing up on ya... Well guess what? It is. I not cannot live without this stuff already. I have this in the original color and if you like champagne undertones try this primer in 'SIN'...which I confess- I purchased as well. Cool thing is, before I bought this they gave me a sample of both colors which are now in my "car makeup kit"- DAMMIT yes. Whatever they have in here gives eye make up staying power like no other! $17.00 <--- You can't afford not to have this!

Too-Faced has a smoky eye shadow box that is pretty friggin' handy! This box comes with a total of 9 shadows to create 3 different smokey looks; Day, Fashion, and Classic. It also comes with a 3 card set which shows you HOW to create the looks. A must have for those who like the smoky eye. $32.00 <--- Showstopper eyes!

OK... Smashbox gloss... That isn't the color I have-but I purchased FLESH.. and it is a flesh tone and it is GORGEOUS!!!

Very nude, and very SEXY. $18.00 <--- So beautiful...

These are just a few of the items I picked up. As you all know I love colors and make up products and there is nothing like a color nobody else has! If you have some colors or items you cannot live without, love or plain want to try- SHARE.

Until Next Time...

P.S. Ms. Classy I haven't forgot about you! Tutorial soon.

Life With The Clarisonic...

2009-05-13T19:01:00.000-07:00

Hello World,

Ok.. so it has officially been a week since I have purchased my latest splurge item - the Clarisonic, and I do LOVE it. As I had stated previously, I noticed a softer texture to my skin, and my moisture level in my skin has been awesome. My products such as moisturizers, and sunscreen don't feel like they are just sitting on top of my skin anymore either. I am not greasy feelin' when I apply anything anymore!!! How cool is that!? Below is the one I purchased (Gotta have PINK and contribute to THE CURE) This has also been an awesome spa type treatment before application and after makeup removal. The biggest improvement after a week of use has been the smoothed texture. I have seen the dry patches of skin go away, and the overall appearance of the skin is simply brighter. Therefore, out of 5 stars: I'll give it 4.5 simply because it is an awesome product, but hella pricey. *cringe* But if you intend to use it regularly- you'll get your moneys worth for sure.

Until next time...

Smile... It Does Make Others Do It Too...

2009-05-12T17:56:00.000-07:00

I haven't had much to say lately- I am going to come up with some other things soon. I just wanted to leave a basic note for people and say to smile. A smile can mean a lot to someone. Yes, Softspoken Beauty... I will do a tutorial with the pinks and browns- Just for you :o)

Niks

Living Beautifully... By the Bottle...

2009-05-09T10:12:00.000-07:00

So, my confessional was that I did feel froggish and leapt on the $200 Clarisonic cleansing brush. Now, most products are carrying the timeline of a week, or so before you see some results, I have noticed an improvement in texture, more than anything and it's only been about 3 days. Yes, it feels nice in the shower, and makes use of your cleanser. By using less, I guess your investment goes further too. Now, I do not by any means have buyers remorse, but I do think a cost of 85 would be reasonable, but apparently they felt otherwise *lol* - but oh well. I am sure soon enough I should have facinating stories to tell you all about it. I'm sure with repeated use, cleansing gets better as well. I was never one to expect a miracle in a bottle... I'm lying.

I want to discuss some things I have used, along with their supposed purpose. Trial & Result. Shall We???

This Crap in a Box... Now I have struggled with hyperpigmentation for a while. After using this on my skin for about a month and a half I tossed it. It didn't seem to be working at all, and believe it smells just like BLEACH too. luckily I didn't spend more than about 5 dollars on it. It was recommended by a friend whom had said they used it and it worked for them. Oh well.

Mama Lotion had so much hype behind it. Supposedly almost made for those suffering (I hate when they say that though...lol) from the dreaded melasma. I decided to go ahead and try it. Well- I think I used this for about the same amount of time, and yet- again saw no results. And this mess is NOT cheap. $45 bucks down the drain. I coulda had a V-8. *smh*

What kind of trial would this be without good ol' Lie-Active??? This 'Lean on Me' method worked for about 2 weeks. You see the trick to proactive is it becomes a dependency. In most cases the purpose of the person seeking the product is to correct and then prevent it from reoccuring. But lie-active is all about continuous use. If you stop... you're right back where you started. A cash cow extraordinaire!!! Beware... I had a friend try this and his face bumped up so terribly he had to take off from work for 2 days for his face to calm down. In the word of his boss, "He had to go home. Do you remember that Martin Lawrence episode when he fought that boxer Tommy Hearns??? Well-that's what he looked like- don't use that proactive mess on your face." So I guess it dubs as an industrial cleaner.

No, I'm not going to bash Ambi. Ambi is actually a decent product. Cleaning wise and leaving the skin soft. I'll give it 3.5 stars out of 5. I still however comma will not buy it anymore. Maybe.

So that's just a few out of a billion things I have tried. I just want to know when they will seriously come up with a product that IS for ALL SKIN TYPES that works. *sigh* A day in my life... What have you tried to correct any skin issues you may have had? I would like to know.

Until Next Time...

Soul-ful Eyes... How-To Do Them...

2009-05-06T12:00:00.000-07:00

The eyes are the most expressive part of our faces... though our mouths definitely can prove that questionable...*lol* Playing your eyes up can be a task if you're unsure of how to do it, or what to do... Maybe even where to start. How you wear your makeup can convey different messages but the basic application techniques practically remain the same... select the colors, base the eye, apply all over color, blend the other colors, and set your look with the details. Shall we?

First select a base to hold your color and give it staying power, 3 shades (all over color, a darker to define, and a brow highlight)

I am using: Make Up For Ever- Pan Stick (white base), M.A.C Parfait Amour (purple), Deep Truth (dark blue), Ricepaper (bone), and Carbon (black).

Start of course with the eyes booger free:
1. Apply a base all over the lid, starting at the bottom, and spreading it either by finger, or brush up to the brow bone.

2. Apply the lighter color with a medium shadow brush from the bottom of the eyelid up to about 3/4ths of the way up. Ensure the color is standing out properly. (Parfait Amour)

3. Using a broad blending brush use the tip to pick up the darker color (Deep Truth) to add some depth and define the crease of the eye. blend throughly with a sweeping motion (like shading lightly) from darker color to the lighter color.

4. -BLEND DAMN YOU!!!!

5. Apply the brow highlighter with a small shadow brush. (Ricepaper)

6. Continue to blend from the browbone down until the colors have blended without hard or harsh lines. The end result should be a light to dark gradient tone.

7. If you're like me- without eyebrows (LMAO); use a brown to black eyeshadow and an anglebrush to create the illusion...

8. You can always add BLACK to create a smoky look by shading it darkly around the corners of the lid and spreading the black throughout the look. KOHL liners complete that look by smudging it across the eyelash bash and using the brush to spread the smudge. and use that same brush after underlining the eyes to a looser smoked line... Remember the key is to BLEND.

After you have achieved how dark or light you'd like your shadow, you know to apply your mascara, and glitter, bindi's, and diamond sparkles, and lashes- which I will touch bases on one of these days. I certainly hoped this tutorial helped. Any other suggestions on looks, please let me know.

I have a confession.... I got my Clarisonic.... *sigh* i'm horrible. (but I can't wait to use it.)

Until Next Time...

Essentials, Proper Skin Care for You & Wish Lists...

2009-05-05T13:34:00.000-07:00

As humans we love to put our best foot forward most of the time. What we also must understand is that beauty doesn't start with the make-up you applied, but with what is under the makeup, and inside your hot-body! Taking care of your insides are important as your outside. I'm no heath specialist, so I'll keep in the inner portion simple. Watch what you eat, drink water (even though I hate to- I do...), and stay positive regardless of age, weight, height, color or sex! Moving along... The skin that you intend to present is yours for the rest of your life so why not use the products that help to protect it and keep it supple? A good skincare regimen is always in order to fight blemishes, breakouts, and keep your skin looking bright and healthy. I'm not here to push what I use on you, but let you know what helped me. General essentials are: A deep cleanser, regular cleanser, toner, moisturizer, and believe it or not- sunscreen. Doesn't have to be specifics from my regimen, but what WORKS for YOU; and everything ain't for everybody- contrary to most folks who are taught to tell u 'what u want to hear' at the beauty counters beliefs. As stated, we are all DIFFERENT. That difference calls for different regimens, and yes that means different products as well.

As a side note, people with tan, and more brown tones in their skin are more prone to hyperpigmentation, or uneven skin complexions. I speak from experiencing it myself. There wasn't one product I don't think I didn't try that wasn't within my budget to try to correct it. It can be discouraging slapping fifty million creams on your face and looking in the mirror a few weeks later to see no change. So, I have somewhat learned to live with it, but I have also been doing research on products that can help the appearance of it. I have also been a nut about doing reviews on products before purchasing them since I had wasted so many precious dollars as it was. I am currently happy with what I am currently using, which I will discuss, as I have seen results.

Nikki's Skin Essentials: RX for Brown Skin Bright & Even regimen (Exfoliating cleanser, toner, botanical brightener, and moisturizer) and Dermalogica Barrier repair, multiactive toner, protection spray, and medicated clearing gel. Oh and let my hypercolored butt not forget what has been causing me to see no results... I now have added SUNSCREEN to the mix and the one I use is PeterThomasRoth, and at $28.00 per 3 oz bottle... 30 SPF. Non greasy and no oil, and is perfect for the face. Since I have been following this regimen I have seen results in my face texture, moisture level, and brightness. Most of these items sans Dermalogica, can be found at Sephora http://www.sephora.com/ and my total regimen runs me about *cringe*... $160.00 for the Dermalogica portion, and believe you me though- the full size bottles last FOREVER! The Brown skin RX is going to run me $145.00. So I'll basically be every 9 months or so spending about $200.00-$300.00 on my face, and I look at it, and now think just like this when buying something for my personal care: i'm worth it.

I am only putting the ones I use daily, and frequently... I still have lots more Dermalogica, as it is an AWESOME line. Cleans without scents, so that means less irritation, and CALMS my over reactive skin down.
Day & Night/ RX for Brown Skin Kit- 55$ (month supply, as I was just testing it, but ended up liking it, so I will be buying the full size soon)
(Night Only) Barrier Repair- $36.00
Soothing Protection Spray- $33.00
MultiActive Toner- $32.00
Medicated Clearing Gel- $45.00 http://www.dermalogica.com/
*Perk products- *$9.00 Burts Bee's Deep Clean (Soap Bark, and Chammomile)- This cleanser is THA TRUTH- leaves skin soft and very clean.. light tingle when it's done, but not that burning tingle. After using it- it doesn't give you that I scrubbed my face clean- clean, but my face is clean- clean.

Now you may be looking at me googly eyed like- 'Are you crazy???' No, I'm not. I care about my skin, and I wasn't fortunate enough to be able to use the over the counter stuff and have it work for me. So, I gotta do what I gotta do to have that supple skin too. I tried home remedies, and about a billion other products that claimed to help. From drying and dangerous hydroquinone enhanced products, to black soap, to the pure cocoa butter soaps and sticks... Neutrogena dries me out. Oil of Olay made me well.. oily, and regular old Dove, made me feel like I had a film on my face still. So I had to move on from the at home and OTC cleansers. Yea, it hurt my funky pockets but.. it is what it is. I have now found my balance of products that work for me.

I have a friend who used to have frequent breakouts, and stuggled with them until she discovered Biotherm... which at the time- worked for her perfectly. Her diligent routine had stopped the breakouts, and cleared her skin up beautifully. When she told me she loved it, I called myself looking into it at Macy's, saw the price tag and promptly walked right back out. Now that I look back on it, it was not realistic for me to just spend that kind of money, but when you have spent hundreds on "cheaper" products and gotten no results- It wouldn't kill you to invest in something that is backed by the people who sell it. Like the results? You love it? Well, keep it, and keep supporting the brand. No results...? OK, return it and continue your journey with your money back. If you get a backing on the products- you can't lose unless you're too lazy to take it back after 3 months of it not working for you. This is why I love shopping at places like Sephora... they back what they sell, and have a fantastic return policy. 3 months of a properly performed regimen is more than enough time to see some results. If you don't see them, or plain don't like it- take it back...it's that simple.

My Wish List: I have heard so many great RAVES- about the ClariSonic face brush... how it cleaned the pores up, and allows regimen care and products to get deeper in the skin...which someone like me needs. That sucker is $195.00 though. One day when I'm feelin froggy- I'll leap.

I'd like some of your input of your own skin care regimens. Some of the products you liked, disliked, and why. The results you've gotten with the line or lines, you stick with and what you'd like to try.

Until next time.....

Get Your Mind Right... It's Your Look... Perfect it!

2009-05-04T11:18:00.000-07:00

They say that what we project on the outside can tell us what's going on in the inside... Yet again, I agree, but I also disagree. I know people who put best foot forward outside, but are torn down inside... People who step out "homely lookin' " but feel perfectly fine inside. Now what some of you are thinking may be.. "hmmm" what in the world are people are Saks Fifth feelin' like- or as Madea (Tyler Perry) so eloquently put it... "They say money can't make you happy, but I'd sure in hell like to find out." I have had my days where when I made myself up. ..and felt prettier, better, even more positive, and days where my "makeup" made me feel no different.

What I had to change was not my make up, but my thoughts to be a better person, and see the sunshine in everything... I mean just that. Katt said...EVERYTHANG??? Eh-vEr-Ra-Thang. What I am trying to convey is this: Now that you have the basics down, and know your style.. perfect it. Nothing wrong with adding some color to your gloss. Nothing wrong with throwing some curls in your straight hair. It doesn't hurt to throw a little curveball now and again. If you feel like you're doing way too much with your newer look, then take it one addition at a time. I didn't begin my look full mode on. OH GOODNESS NO. I had neutral colors and stuck with them, until I got a little curious about what that blue would look like on ME. After that I did enroll in cosmetology, so what in the heck good is a beautician in training without AWESOME looks??? The rest is history...

Here are some tasks for my plain janes...

1. Find or pick 2 colors that you feel wouldn't look good on you (via a makeup store or purchase), write down why they wouldn't, and try them out- or better yet if you go to a make up store, have an artist use it on you in a minimal manner... and prove yourself wrong.

The key when it comes to color is HOW MUCH to use.... especially if you just began wearing makeup. Otherwise you will feel like you're in make-up overdrive.

2. Use your neutral tones with the 2 new colors you have. See what blending techniques work for you with the neutral make-up, so that is not demanding attention you may not be ready for. Just a subtle, yet nice change to a regular neutral look... Just a bit of jazz if you will. Try some blue with that brown and see what a gorgeous color combo you have!

3. UNDERSTAND that a lot of people think because you wear make-up, you're ashamed or not confident in your natural beauty. When that is SIMPLY not true. Some people know they are gorgeous... others have to be told... however, I have never met a woman that make-up touched and didn't have that natural beauty enhanced. EXAMPLE: Have you seen Halle Berry in all her glory without makeup?!?!? Yeah- I'm just sayin'... (95%...lol)

As you grow more comfortable wearing makeup you'll probably venture out and try different colors that are WAY out, and even learn how to incorporate that color into the daily look. The purpose in this is having a happy medium. Knowing when to pull out the big guns, and show 'em what you got, or when to K.I.S.S... The point of the neutrals you should have is to have a perfected "daily" look... adding these colors to them, simply give you another avenue when you feel like making another statement outside of... I'm cute. maybe, I'm FINE...

Conclusion is, to wear makeup and be confident about it, you have to get your mind right. You're an individual, and there is nothing wrong with makeup. If you opt not to wear it. More power to you... However, don't bash those who do, then get mad when they are out and about getting compliments because their shadow is gorgeous, or that color on their lips is sooooo pretty. You are you- with or without make-up. Make-up does not change YOU! Beauty shines through the make-up. True beauty is on the inside... let that reflect on the outside. Only you know how much is too much for you, and nobody else. As for Nikkay... there are never enough pretty shades for these gorgeous globes or lips!!! *lol*

Until next time...

The Basics... Cost = Quality??? I Think Not- Not All The Time Anyway...

2009-05-03T09:51:00.000-07:00

Hello Everybody,

Some of us wonder exactly what the hell do I need all that makeup for? Well for the most part a lot of us don't "need" the make up, but do own it. As for myself, I simply love different colors, products, textures, looks and whatnot- that's why I have so much crap. Besides, i'm a friggin' stylist for goodness sake- it'd be a crime not to be armed with a serious set of fabulous MESS. *lol* The sickening part is there is ALWAYS something new to test out; So- it's a no win situation when you love makeup as I do. (I confess.....) Oh the hell well.

I want to discuss the 8 BASICS of what any chick SHOULD have in their mini makeup bag, kit, conglomerate... whatever it is you've got. And if you own none of the above- You need to go get the below: I'll tell you why in Un Momento...

1. Powder or Sheer Foundation (with applicator of course)
2. Neutral color eyeshadow "quad" +1 Black eyeshadow- For the make-up inclined a quad contains 4-colors. Neutral will usually be peachy, brown, tan and/or possibly goldish tones.
3. Eyeliner... A dark brown, or black
4. Mascara- A nice brown or black again

5. Lip Liner- A nice shade that doesn't yell LOOK.
6. Lipgloss - Sheer or lightly colored

7. Eye Shadow Brush- That squeegee thing that comes with the shadow does nothing but make a mess.
*8. BLUSH If you're feelin' frisky put 8 in the bag too. (This is optional because some people seriously don't like nor do they wear blush- As for myself... Blush is not an option. It's critical!!! *ha ha*)

And there you have it! All of those items can fit in a medium sandwich ziplock bag if it's too much like right to have a makeup bag. Now... on to WHY you should have these items.

1. A TRUE MATCHING COLOR IS A MUST! The purpose of the powder and/or foundation is so you can have a clear, set face. You do not have to pile it on, nor do you need to be an expert, but to even out your complexion, as not many of us were born flawless- and if you think so... I'mma need you to do some research. Not to say Maybe it's Maybelline, but to understand that maybe it is... no, no wait- it IS Maybelline most of the time- dammit.
*P.S. PLEASE, PLEASE, PLEASE... if you do nothing else in your life, blend your foundation and powders below your jawline to your neck if need be. There is nothing worse than seeing an unblended line at the jaw. It looks like someone can just come peel your makeup off... that or you stuck your head underneath a talc machine. Blend damn you.

2. The purpose of the neutral quad is so you can have the "daily" look- and the black is there to turn day makeup into night-wear... As you can see most "dark" makeup is worn at night. Unless you're constantly in avant garde mode- which some of us are, but for the rest of you- who dare not walk on the wild side- neutral will do.

3. Eyeliner- to outline those lucious lookers and make them stand out... Hello.

4. Unless you were born with those long RIMMEL'S... get some. There are so many out there plumping, extending (which I need), double extending, thickening... etc.

5. Line the lips to give some definition to them. Unless you don't need any definition, but most folks need some. It also give you an outline of where the lipgloss needs to go.

6. Nothing like some good ol' lipgloss. Gives a sheer shine to the puckerer's...

7. The shadow brushes are so you can apply your shadow with the right precision. Those "q-tip" looking applicators SUCK. Sorry... they do. They also make you use more makeup than needed. So please invest in a brush so your investment in the shadow will last longer.

8. Blush makes the whole face stand out, and defines those beautiful cheekbones you have... (or made with proper contouring application... ;o)

You can more than likely get all of the above for a low, low price of.....

Well the whopping price of.....
Uhhhh well... that the technicality (tek-ni-kal-i-tee):

Makeup costs differ depending on your style, taste, and like Capitol(ism) One- What's in your wallet... The good thing is there is something out there for everybody, no matter what your pockets look like. Holla if you hear me.

* Rounded figures

Cheapie AKA cheaper list:
Covergirl, Tru-Blend, L'Oreal Foundation $10-$13.00
Covergirl Quad: $7.00- 14.00
Eyeliner: $3.00
Mascara: $6.00
Lip Liner: $3.00
Blush: $5.00
Lipgloss: $5.00
Shadow Brush: $4.00

*TOTAL $28.00 - $50.00

http://www.target.com/

For those who may be a little more concerned with quality or whatever your reason is- I affectionately named the other list-

Professional AKA Pocket Rape List:
M.A.C. foundation: $26-$40.00
M.A.C. palette (4 shades): $45.00
M.A.C. lip pencil: $13.00
M.A.C. ProLash Mascara: $12.00
M.A.C. Lipglass: $14.00
M.A.C. Blush: $18.00
M.A.C. Large Shadow Brush: $29.00

*TOTAL $139 -$175.00

http://www.maccosmetics.com/

Now, I by no means want you to run out and withdraw $200.00 out of your account to accomodate the M.A.C. list. (Why 200? Tax fool... damn that tax!!!) I am simply saying that makeup can get really expensive if you want the "upper quality" products. However, being the smart folks you are, I am sure you can mix & match items and find what works best for you, and your pocketbook. I must confess I still and will have PLUS keep- a few cheapie items, and a lot of retardedly priced items that supposedly did a better job, but didn't- So I went back to the cheapie. There are some things a high price cannot buy, and peace of mind is one of those things. Go to Walgreens, Target, or anywhere that carries WET n' WILD BLACK LIQUID LINER. Because IT IS THE TRUTH!!! Goes on smooth, dries fast and is BLACKER than BLACK. Guess what? All it costs is: 3 bucks. Compare that to M.A.C's $15.00 ashy lookin' black fluidline-which I did own, and did not replenish... why? Cuz, I HATED IT!!! That is all. Point is, there are some things that you simply cannot compromise nor equate the quality- in cost.. and vice versa. It is your skin, and your look. You be the judge of what is and is not compromisable!!!

Until next time....

Introducing...

2009-05-02T14:08:00.000-07:00

Hello folks,
I'm just on here to open up a gateway- share some makeup tips, tricks, and reviews on products we use to "beautify" ourselves. Though about 5% of the world doesn't need makeup to be beautiful- chances are you fall in the 95 percentile. That was a joke for the slow... But truly for those looking for tips, tricks and other blurbs about make-up and things...

I stated in my preview of this blog that a lot of people run around claiming SME's (Subject matter experts) about makeup and swear their tricks work on everyone- I beg to differ. The first thing we must realize when it comes to beauty & makeup is: we are all DIFFERENT!!! No one trick will work the same way on everyone. In example an eyeshadow technique that is used to add depth to the eye does my slanted eyes NO justice. I have to spread shadow up and over the fold of skin. HELLO- they didn't tell me that when I was learning- I had to go el Negro- ALONE, and figure it out. Some "makeup artists" act like all eye have no folds, no skin conditions, and goodness- no COLOR. I actually get a kick out of so called makeup artists who haven't the slightest clue of where to begin when it comes to skin that is not "fair". I had it done to me before- I ended up lookin' like an ashy cadaver with pasty purplish-pink lipstick. OH NO!!!! (Maybe they were trying the avant garde look..... maybe???)

This blog is not about specifically Black, Brown, White, Yellow, or Tan skin at all; it's about The SKIN OF PEOPLE. I'd like to simply disclose and receive some products, tip and tricks that can help those who can apply them. Factually, a lot if not most tips, books, and products that are put out are not for women with any of the above skin outside of "fair", so I'll fill in the blanks where need be, to help the rest of us get what we need out of some of those tips, and make sense of why that yellow shadow looked green on you. I plan to touch on everything I can think of from skin types- primers that make you oily- etc... but we'll get into all of those things soon enough.

I will start the blog by discussing my nice sized makeup collection from makeup- primers, brushes, blushes, shadows, and cleaners to finishing powder. The good the bad and the ugly. Cleansers, toners, moisturizers, books, NO HOLDS BARRED BEAUTY. I will discuss the tried and the true. The tried and hated as well.... Feel free to contribute- I look forward to learning as well!

Welcome... and enjoy- Nikki

ABOUT THAT TIME...

2009-03-12T18:39:00.000-07:00

Yeah I know.. where you been,what ya been up to, and how u just gone leave me like dat??? I been busy still. Still trying to maintain. Lots of interesting mess to deal with. I have phoney bitches mad because a dude don't want them. Mad cuz they can't be me. Just mad- and for what I ask??? Because of some DICK. Are you flippin' serious???? The last time I checked- everybody was an adult- so who you choose to deal with, talk to, screw, lick, suck or fuck was your damn business. If I felt you was a hooka that would try all of thee above with my man- I wouldn't hang out with you. That's just me because I'm not phoney. see but I had a phoney bitch all in my ass worried about my good ol' DB... man comon ya'll already know him not going NO-WHERE. No matter how much you dislike it- no matter how much ya'll hate it- that fool, ain't going til im ret, yes RET for him to go.

Too bad someone else didn't get that- now see I would feel a certain way about all this involvement had this person spoke up immediately, but months down the road and then confirm? Too late pimpin- the damage has been done- but how fake and phoney of you to hang around me, go out with me, ask me for BEAUTY tips..lol and think I'd sleep with your man because of a dude you can't stand that apparently you dealt with years ago, that deals with me? If I knew from getty up, I'd feel bad, but I didn't and what was done was done.... get over it and move on. the funny part is this chick so claims to not care NOTHING about this cat, so why iz yo' feelings so damaged???

This chick got into it with her folks and called herself staying with me being the courteous bitch I am, I let the broke bitch stay there. (Nigga- thanks 'Ressa)Mind you she ain't try to pay a one bill but wanted to stay from January til March hello- which was a no go. So one evening about 2 weeks down the line, this heffer feels like she can talk some shit and basically call me a "hoe" over you know who, like we cool like dat- because she swears up and down I knew about them- verbatim, "i'm just saying that says to me that you would try to sleep with my husband if I was married" Now and as a mutual excuse me- my friend said- she act like she lovedededed him or su-in. so I may be nice, but you not kicking it in my crib and gonna call me shit but my name- so I put her ass out. Prior to tha door hitting where the good Lord split her, she crying and thangs taking about, "maybe I said it wrong-" how about you said what you feel. You can correct 'your hair is fucked up', or even 'I don't like them shoes on you', but technically you're a hoe? No. I don't want somebody who feels that way about me in MY crib- FUNK that! Kick rocks so I can finish ho-in'...

Anyway a whole 2 months go by and why-o-why does this chicken hit my girl on my space talking extra yaya about me? lol.. Im like 2 months later? Are you bitter? you gotta be- I could understand it if it was the next day- a week later, but 2 months? I have damaged your entire soul. I mean I really could understand a what? 35 year old simply getting the fuck over it to be honest. But...I forgot who I was referencing- in case ya'll aint know the same yamp that backed up into my car and tried to act stupid- uh yeah you know I got a good heart dealing with them kinds. Either way she got super checked, and wanted to try to fling fire, Do you know this bitch was too scary to pick up the phone like an adult and say what was on her mind, but felt the need to text me from about 11:30 am to about 5:30 pm. I shit you NOT!!! So I laughed everything she had to say off, because it's the same old same she tried to say about any and everybody she falls or fell out with and I put it like it is:

LETS BE REAL- THIS IS ABOUT SOME DICK. Don't sit up telling me about nobody else, fighting you, cuz I don't fight ugly folks cuz mama always said they have nothng to lose, other members that hung around, my looks, because apparently niggas you claim to have deal with like 'em...how ganxta you THINK you are, (But I gotta hit her first- but she said she'd "wope" my ass... anybody know what "wope" is???)and what my poontang smells like. Boo this is about some ding-a-ling you're mad you cannot have. You're mad just like the rest of these yamps that want some him, that, that ding-a-ling is sprung on Nikki. So like THE REST you need to get over it, and find some other wang

When will bitches learn? When will they learn??? *smh*

(gracefully borrowed from Sharon) Conversations (via text) I've actually had:

her; you ain't cute nicole.. I'm doing good hoe...

me: i have a whole consensus that thinks otherwise- including the fools you mess with apparently. So that makes me the best hoe you know

her: Well let's meet up and we can squash this...I ain't tripping because i know you can't see me...I'd wope you

me: well i'm sure a beastly broad like you could "wope" me... how old are you again? Besides, you know where i live, party all that.. you wanna see me- come see me- til then STFU cuz you not gonna do shit.

her: Well I'm just waiting to catch you slipping in public, and put hands on me first.

me: You so ganxta but I gotta hit you first... I just told you- I do not fight ugly people because they have nothing to lose.

her; i'm just gonna listen to my brother because you not worth it.

me: no you not that crazy... Keep on hating though- It's Delicious (thanks T)

//////quit texting me this BULL.

"i ain't never been a silly hoe..."

My Life...In the sunshinerrrrrr...

2009-01-18T18:40:00.000-08:00

Yeah, I know I am late with the whole happy new year 2009- I ain't got time... stuff, but I'm here so stop with ya bitching. I hve been working a lot, and as a few folks know they have us back on this "mandatory" OT schedule so it has been pure hell in trying to eat, sleep, do homework, take a shower, oh let's not forget to wipe properly and have a life in-betwixt this funked up schedule. So blogging hasn't been on my top list these days. Sorry for my fans. I have cleaned house on the folks who should have been up out my life since. hmmmmmmmmm I don't know- the one thing I can attest to is that you will in no shape form or fashion hide from true colors that time reveals. plastics, fakes, and drama queens had to get what we call the funk on. So what's new in the '09? Well nothing really- it was just a turn of the year for me- especially since I had to what is it called?? ummm work yeah on new years day, so there was no partying for me. THEN tomorrow I have to work on MLK day and yes I'm using my race card- I'm Black dammit- I don't wanna work- the extra pissy part about having to work is.. Oh praise the day it returned but reggae sundays are BACK at club SIN formerly known as Martini Ranch- Grand opening TONIGHT. Ain't that about a bitch in a miniskirt on rollerskates? YOU KNOW IT'S GONNA CRACKKKKKK! Oh but I shall be getting lovely "Z's" so that I can go sit and stare at a phone that is maybe going to beep once, 2/3 times if I'm lucky. Otherwise I'm going to just be looking stupid asking everyone else how it was. I'm so friggin mad about that. Guess me and my book will be cool. I guess.