Tuesday, January 26, 2010

in Los Angeles This Past Weekend...

I had a great time, hung out with some friends and got a lil hang out in. Met some real people, and it makes or will be making my trips to LA that much more fun! I came to know some REAL truths about a little situation I was going through.. but even now- regardless of what is said, done, or assumed.. I am just fine with everything as it is. If people want to be foolish enough to make silly choices in their life- that is on them. I just prefer not to keep ties to those type of individuals. If all you can think about in life is how to 'get over' instead of how to 'get on'; you are not the type of person I want or need in my life on ANY level. Some people love chaos and disorder- some people love the attention... so find that spotlight in the places you have been- Yeah, the ones nobody knows about! If I can't say nothing else about me- I'll never EVER internalize anything that person did to me and feel that I was ever a problem or had been one. I am simply too real, too much woman, and too fabulous, too smart and way too good for & to that person. To the degree that he expected to be able to treat me like dirt, come and go as he pleased, and had multiple females he was messing with all while lil' ol' Nikki was supposed to be like ' oh ok...' HELL TO THE NAW. I was never the problem- he was. I shine TOO bright, and that person may have gave a damn... maybe not, but I know that they loved everything about me- except the fact that I AM NOT & NEVER WAS STUPID. *snap* Oh Darn! Either way baby, c'est la vie! This beautiful woman deserves the same energy from those who want to be in her circle. Everything happens for a reason, and people are in your life for a reason, season, or lifetime... Your season had been up- we were just in denial. I wish you no harm and hope everything works out for you.... I WISH YOU WELL. I hope the choices you made, and make will make you a better person and put you in a better place- just as mines have and do. God Bless....




Love, peace and hairgrease!



Niks

Tuesday, January 19, 2010

What I Have Learned... (Reflections)

After dealing with a crock of shit ass excuse for a dude for the past 2 and a half years; I finally rogered up on the situation, and seen it for what it was and IS- rather than what I'd like it to be. I'd like to share with you all, what I have learned from the whole shitty experience.


1. Trifling people will look you dead in your eyes and lie right through their teeth to get whatever it is they want from someone. 'I love you' <-- example.
2. Some people seriously have no limits on how low they'll go- or act to have it 'their" way.
3. People who are out for themselves are only thinking about the 'moment'- not the long haul. Which is why they are usually unstable people- constantly going place to place.
4. Any man that feels the need to have a backup plan in regards to his "relationship" (And by that I mean multiple bitches all over the place... Is just as much of a hoe as she is for fucking with him- knowing he had a woman.
5. NEVER compromise your dignity, self-respect, or tolerance levels for the sake of "love" because real love doesn't hurt. I mean that mentally, physically, and emotionally. If that person loved you- they wouldn't treat you like shit.
6. Any guy that sits on a cell-phone like a 16 year old girl is cheating.
7. Any guy that's always in the club is cheating.
8. Any guy that's always hanging up under his "homeboys" is cheating- that or he's got some "tendencies".
9. Any guy that thinks he got it like that will certainly try to push the envelope to see just how far they can go. Most of the time never bold enough to just do it- but attempt whatever they THINK they can get away with. <--- coward.
10. Any person who doesn't like to hear the TRUTH is in DENIAL.
11. If they're always defensive when you question behavior- it's more than likely because they are doing something they SHOULDN'T be...
12. Leopards do not change their spots!!! A liar is a liar- as a rose is a rose.
13. If they are acting "sneaky" it's more than like they because they are trying to BE sneaky. (Key word: TRYING) <--- can't slick a can of oil.
and last but certainly not least:
14. Some people are simply comfortable being raggedy as me and my girl Bev put it. If work is involved- they'd rather not. Some people seriously would rather have noodles- over shrimp & lobster...An easy guarantee is all some people need to get by. And that is fine- you just will not be doing it on MY time. It is time that real women acknowledge that and let they asses have that nonsense so you have room for a real man in your life that will cherish you and treat you right- because you are not just #1, but the only 1...
Bottom line- You cannot get played until you start playing yourself. No matter what a person says- if their actions do not back it up: chop it up as hot air and do your thing moving. I learned a couple of valuable lessons in the situation, but the most important was: Never settle for less than you deserve- because eventually a nigga will try to treat you like less than the 110% woman you ARE and try to keep you there if you let him...
If you were honest in your efforts to be a friend to a person, there for them, and more than they ever had and they still didn't appreciate it or they took you and your heart for granted... yeah- you'll hurt a little when you walk away... but everyday is easier and better; PLUS you can look at it this way. You ain't got nobody: lying to you, treating you like dirt, playing games, or keeping up drama. They can take that shit on to someone who don't know any better and LIKE that kind of silliness. You actually start to wonder why in the hell it took you so long to get away from that bullshit anyway... So respect yourself enough to draw the line and say enough is e-fucking-nuff. Grown people have goals, change for the better, and recognize good things when they present themselves. Not keep making the same dumb mistakes. <-- where Nikki grew up.
SOOOooOOO FUCK EM. Move around.
You tried to play a game and lost terribly... Checker players can't play with CHESS queens. *double kisses.. muah- muah* Buh-bye!
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"You can't bring me down- but you sure can... WIPE me down." LoveBScott
"you must not know 'bout me.. you must not know 'bout me..." Irreplaceable- Beyonce
"Tell Everybody THAT you know.. That I don't love you no mo'..." See U In my Nightmares- Kanye- Lil' Wayne

Monday, January 11, 2010

You's A HOE... (See the title of the blog)

All I am saying is it is these Sideline Ho's that is so busy playing number two to realize they are not the ONE. If the nigga really wanted you and wanted to be with you- he'd leave who he was fucking with alone to be WITH you. Not be trying to sneak, duck, and dodge his way around to see you when he "can". If he gotta start a fight at home to see you- stay out all night and act like he couldn't make it home... it's because he trying to keep shit in the safe box where he is at mostly. It's not cuz he wanna stay at home with you- it's cuz he got someone else he knows he need to save face for, and if she wasn't worth shit he'd plain leave her alone and get with your dumb ass. BITCHES please stop lying to yourself believing everything a nigga tell your dumb ass. Put 2 and 2 together and come up with the answer to the equation. You can't call his phone... you don't know where he stay.. you ain't getting no REAL time.... Yes, it takes two to tango, but it is these simple bitches that make it that much easier for them to act like HOES with your trifling- ok with being on the side HOE asses. Either way... I need you to check yourself and realize that just because you acted like you didn't know.. or knew and didn't care- it doesn't make you any less of a HOE. Actually it makes you a STANK ASS HOE in my book. You and him. You deserve each other. Birds of a feather- sneaky- lying and cowardly bitches. If a bitch called me up and asked me some shit about a nigga- it is my duty to tell you what is up. Not on some vindictive shit either, but on a REAL note... Not beat around the bush so the nigga can KEEP lying... lol See a stupid bitch tried to lie the first time- so now that I "caught" the lie- I bursted her bubble with the REAL 411... yes,the nigga had a girl (and hoe don't act like you ain't know...). Bitch he lived with her (That's why he can't spend the nights with you). Yes he got his ass put out(That's why he calling you so often now..); so NOW he is single and you ain't gotta "take him" because now you can HAVE his sorry ass... From me to YOU. ENJOY. He ain't gone do nothing but the same ass shit to you...lol So i ain't losing nothing of value. in the words of Lewis from IHustleNation.com, "I'm all for passing the problem person to someone else." He can be YOUR problem since apparently you want him so bad and he bringing an "abundance" of joy to your life- LMAO! we'll see how long that joy and happiness last before he ain't causing shit but strife, drama, and pain to your foolish ass... because he is no longer going to do it to me. Have fun with that.
Here is a list for you lost hoes...
If you have a s/o and you out fronting like you ain't got one... (see the title of the blog- and add TRIFLING)
If you wanna front like you ain't know s/he had someone yet you can't get no real time or holidays with the person... (see the title of the blog- and add an IN DENIAL)
If you don't know none of the family and ain't been invited to do so after a while of seeing each other... (see the title of the blog- and add a Regular ol')
If you sitting up lying to yourself and your friends about why you do not know the location that s/he rests...(see the title of the blog- and add SILLY)
If the only thing you can do to contact the person is "text" them... (see the title of the blog- Add DELUSIONAL)
If you have to make a demand that they "stay the night" to show you that you are the only "one"... (see the title of the blog- add SIMPLY PLEASED)

If you have to convince yourself that there IS a good reason that from December 23rd-the 27th- why you was by yourself... BOO- (see the title of the blog- *See #2 addition)

P.S.

I am SO glad I busted his ass in in the mouth months before shit hit the fan for lying to me about a bitch. What u do in the dark will come to light. It felt good too... *muah! That was the best that CAME... LOL Rest in PISS coward ass bitch.