Sunday, November 22, 2009
Thursday, November 5, 2009
Monday, October 26, 2009
Wednesday, October 21, 2009
Tuesday, October 13, 2009
Sunday, October 11, 2009
Tuesday, October 6, 2009
Monday, October 5, 2009
I was in a so-called relationship where I allowed myself to become something I clearly was not. I allowed things to happen that I was not ok with and I plain was in a state to where I felt that maybe if I stayed and showed that person I cared, things would change. Guess what ya'll... 2 years later NOTHING CHANGED. I was stupid- never in denial. I was being used, abused, and plain disrespected. BECAUSE I ALLOWED IT.
Any man that feels it is ok to put everything and everybody ahead of you- ain't worth it. Any man that feels like they would rather sit in a club than come home to you- ain't worth it. Any man that feels it's ok to entertain 'hoes' when he knows he has a woman- ain't worth it and he ain't no man.
You see- I had to learn the hard way that some people are plain users, and they are also losers- they blame the world for their problems, and want you to be the recipient of their frustration then claim they did whatever else they did because they loved you. BULLSHIT. There ain't NO LOVE in a situation like that! the least someone with nothing can do is treat you right- I couldn't even get that. Wow- what an eye opener.
I know what I am worth, and know my capabilities. I am not going to keep begging someone to treat me like a woman, or love me right- I am not going to act like I am not worthy of being treated properly after everything I have dealt with IN dealing with that person. I'm not a rude bitch, although I should have been and I don't cheat to get back. I hit where it hurts; I'll leave you alone and move on with my life. I simply womaned up to what I wanted and came to the solid conclusion that what I wanted certainly was not going to come from this individual, due to their selfish ways. He was telling me in a million different ways he wanted to be everywhere else, but with me. I just needed to accept it. Point blank- I deserve more and better than that, so I acted on it and dropped his ass like a bad habit. I can be with someone who wants to be with me and be happy. I have no regrets, because I was the woman I was supposed to be- but I promise he's full of regret, wishing he made those simple changes. Now he's just another dude on the 'damn I messed up, and I miss Nikki' list.
The man I intend to be with knows what he has HERE WITH ME and none of the above is better than that. I am a wonderful woman with a wonderful personality. I have a career- 2 of them actually and my head is on right. I have it going on from head to to toe, inside and out. That cat was turning me into an unhappy, insecure- bitch. Then I ran across that video by Lewis Williams, and that was the smack in the head I needed... I am not married to this fool, so why am I trying to stick it out, work it out, help out, do for, through bad, worse and worse??? I was the only one in love trying to get it right; he was ok with the way that fucked off relationship was; thats why that night he didn't feel compelled to bring himself home instead of the club...I realized that was happening, nothing was changing and decided it was either him or me; and I chose me. Period. I will never again allow no dude to dictate how much time, and love I am worthy of. I deserve EVERYTHING I GIVE in return! That all just brought me back full circle to an old saying of mines that I will uphold: "I respect me- you will do the same or you will go away..."
And to top it off- Look at me; I'm sexy as hell- what I look like acting like I'm not????? You better recognize. lol
Monday, September 28, 2009
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Sunday, September 27, 2009
Saturday, September 26, 2009
Why does he do that? - Because he chooses to
Why do you have to hang in the club every second?- Because he chooses to
Why can you do this that and the third then come at me last? CAUSE YOU CHOOSE TO.
Why can you not do what ur supposed to do?- Cause you choose not to...
Do we get the pattern here? He chooses to act an ass, and don't think he'll have any consequences with them. I mean hell why should he think he will? I been letting his ass think that was so this much this far along- He prolly still thinks I'm just mad for now and will get over it and go right back to this same shit.. Oh but today is a new day- I was not supposed to drag this dumb mess into my 28th year as it is... so let's nip this in the bud. Nothing will change until I MAKE THE CHANGE IN MYSELF. So just as he chooses do do whatever- I am choosing to move around and not deal with that bullshit. Because that's all it is- bullshit. You have entirely too many Ain't Got's to be thinking or telling me I need to just "shut up" and deal with your foolishness. Ain't got no job, ain't got no car, ain't got no money, ain't got no place, ain't got no TIME- which in all actuality that is really all YOU GOT to offer, and you act like you AIN'T GOT that either????? Negro please. Fuck you and what you're going through- I'm going get back to myself, and start back dating REAL MEN who GOT something to offer me besides bullshit on a platter. Late.
Monday, September 21, 2009
Tuesday, September 15, 2009
Sunday, September 13, 2009
Bitch you knew he had a woman... I do not like women who deal with other womens men like they ain't know.. Check it- no home number? not knowing where he stays? no answer at 2 am... can't be together in public.. the only thing he do for you is help u get a nut.. if that... Don't know none of the family, never invited... the only people you know if his "friends"... please! If you ain't knowing none of that after 2 months chances are.. he got someone who IS his woman- while your silly ass sitting up thinking you're the ONE. The ones who really amuse me is the ones acting like they got one leg up on the woman because she "had her man"... EEEEENT!!!! You're not one leg up.. you were played, laid, and dismayed... You're still going to be spending the holidays alone. She's still number 1... and you're still trying to get scraps of time from someone elses... Girl please get your own man. Monica made a song for your kind... check it out- it's called SIDELINE HO... Long story short- breaks it down that second place ain't no prize nor do they GET one... you make urself look dumb sitting around trying to TAKE someone elses man, if he wanted to be with you- he'd LEAVE her then deal with you. In which he knows he does not have to- why should he- you're settling for number 2... feel free if that's what you like. moving along. Do not be silly... that's all I'm sayin'.
"You's a hoe.. you's a hoe.. SIDE-LINE-HO... Get your shit together you're making a fool of yourself, it don't matter if he spends the night, his home is somewhere else...."
- Monica- Sideline Ho
Friday, September 11, 2009
Saturday, September 5, 2009
Monday, August 24, 2009
If you could only take one makeup item with you for a month long trip, which/what would you take? Mine would definitely be a pair of Lashes.. NO DOUBT.
Until Next Time...
Monday, August 10, 2009
- "for me the most annoying thing is a girl who is overly clingy or needy, yet untrusting. like they want u to call 3x a day but if that doesnt go down then they assume the worst and dude is always working to prove something."
- a female with no confidence
- "I dunno that's a difficult one cuz uwant attitude but then u don't want no stank attitude and u don't want super friendly."
"you know what I hate is when they get mad cuz we not spending enough "time" like I'm busy Im not even wit other gurls, just busy. this new level of selfishness I'm so unfamilar with it, like if I like u we gone chill relax! Why we gotta be together EVERY minute?"
Now to chop it up...I responded just like this:
We can let this digest and regurgitate it, and everyone will have their own interpretation of what they got going on in their relationships... True as some men and I say SOME for a reason may be because it is out of the horses.. aka men's mouths. I wouldn't dare call a man a dog. Dog's are actually loyal.*lol*
Anyway, I agree we need to look within if we find ourselves in the same situations, because usually you know BS when you see, smell or step in it. Whether you choose to deal with it or not is entirely up to you. Too often dudes take it upon themselves to make the choice for the woman to deal with his bullshit... that's when the questioning, clingy stuff, and nagging begins. Women are not dolls in boxes you choose to take down and play with when you're ready. If you wanna do your thing, that is all to the goodie, but don't get mad when she's doing her thing too, or try to act like ya'll exclusive and got her waiting at home while you're doing your thing.
I feel a mutual level of respect keeps both parties from getting their wired crossed. Which for some reason men always seem to lack. Don't get me wrong, females do it too, but men are(usually) the main problem in the relationship. (And as Kelis gracefully put it.. it takes two to tango when cheating- Blame them hoes that knew about you and still decided to mess with him.. and his ass for allowing it) Sorry, that's just how goes it.
What most fucked off relationships are missing is that one key point: COMMUNICATION. Period. When you say exactly what you mean, and your actions say the same- there is no room for misunderstandings. Don't sleep with a dude on the first night and not expect him to think you do it often. Don't tell the girl you don't want nothing serious, then wanna hang all up under her, worried about how many numbers she got, or who she fukkin'... IOW- If you didn't want nothing serious, don't front like you do (verbally or non verbally) If your ass ain't gonna show up til 5pm... say so don't tell my ass 2 and have me waiting on you. If you wanna see other people... say so- so she's am not missing out on Ruth Chris with someone who CAN afford it...lol though I can take myself.. i'm just sayin'... yet again waiting on your ass.
Whether they want to admit it or not, they know you can almost ALWAYS do better than them, because womens options are always more than mens(and they hate that shit because they are trying to pick and choose and compare at ALL times...).... unless his ass look like Halle Berry or some shit.
To read more check her out Bella's Blog
Sunday, August 2, 2009
Until next time...
Saturday, July 25, 2009
Wednesday, July 15, 2009
1. You have a guy/girl who does right by you, treats you well and helps you out when you have nothing... Down to giving you somewhere to stay even when your so-called friends ain't got a couch to offer you.
Dumb move: Cheating on them with somebody who had NOTHING like just like you. How about you make a move that's going to elevate your situation... not put you back on the streets... Ain't no coochie or ding-a-ling worth me being homeless. Sorry- it ain't that serious.
2. You have an opportunity to get around people who make things happen, have careers, and are trying to be positive in their lives. Making moves while you see it...They also, share that knowledge with YOU.
Dumb move: Saying you would never want to be a sistah/brother who wears a tie to work, and you can't do that. However would rather hang around a bunch of gang affiliated idiots who might make all of a quick buck or quick money, by either selling "fruit-cock-tail" on the corner, or "white girl" (cuz ain't no REAL money in weed people; unless you MOVING some sh*t- let's not front)are in and out of jail constantly. <-- that's the crowd u prefer to hang with????? You're not hanging with the right ones because guess what? the ones who IS moving it like that prolly hanging around the people with real jobs LMAO. *SMH*
3. You have the opportunity to be real. Period. The person has shown you that you are not slick and cannot get much past them. It's like mama's- they just know and eventually will have all her ducks in a row to be like BAM!!!! Remember- you can be found out, and the point is they're smarter than you- stop lying when you're not that smart. If you're that messy in whatever it is you're doing- you're better off being honest. Especially if you can't get away with more than a week of activity before being found out. ** NOTE: Sorry it is how it is- some folks are simply smarter than you are- it's not cocky or mean; it's truth and more than likely... when you're busted repeatedly- it's because that other person is smarter than you. Sorry it's just how it is.
Dumb move: lying when proof's in tha puddin'. How dumb can you really be?
4. You get beat over the head with life lessons- 'til you get it.
Dumb move: not learning from those lessons. Again, we're all guilty of being beat over the head with a lesson more than once.. but all-in-all there was and is a lesson in all of it. Your job is to learn from it and emerge a better person. Learn people... When will you learn???
Point is.. be real with yourself folks... When the truth is too much for you- it's because you're fake. Fake people are in denial about real sh*t. They deny knowing the truth. They deny knowing what was up. They deny knowing it was someone else in the picture..even when they don't know their home numbers or where they live... Fake people say they didn't call opther people when the number is on the bill.. People are plain fake as Beyonce's hair in the 'Ego' video- (which is off the chain though...lmao). Stop. Drop. Roll in some real paste- sit in the sun and let it BAKE....then get the fuck on. One saying about muh-self... since 1997- Nikki is never in denial. if I did it I fucking did it. I'm not going to lie to you or sugar coat it. That way I ain't gotta keep up with no stories. That take up too much time, and eventually I might run into someone that's smarter than I am...
"That's Sheisty... That's Backstabber...and the little one.. that's.. that's Pickpocket"...
- The Mad Rapper
Though I have been gone for a hot second... I am back. Reviewing the RX for Brown Skin line by Dr. Susan Taylor. I am going to go over what I have seen, and noticed with this great line.
So, I purchased this regimen about a bit over 2 months ago, and I want to break down exactly what I have seen with consistent use of the whole regimen. I mean yes- everyday without missing any. Immediately, I felt softness in my skin, and 60 days later I still continue to have that softness that makes you want to touch on your own face all day. Now we know that is not good, as it can lead to break outs, but hey- a touch here and there won't kill ya. *lol* The second most noticeable effect after using the regimen was the overall texture improvement that was VISIBLE. Believe it or not, our mirrors can trick us into seeing things we thought did, or did not exist. Once you get in proper light, and a crisp-clean mirror boy does the truth shine through! The whole texture of my skin, like the feel was softer. An airbrushed look if you will. The area on my face which had defiant little "wrinkly patches" (from irritability, or plain dryness) seemed to blend in a whole lot better, smoothed and evened. As far as the blotchiness or deep hyperpigmentation goes, I have seen some improvement. Nothing drastic to swear off any other possible aids, but an improvement. The blotchiness is less noticeable, whereas I used to look in the mirror and zoom in on the areas of hyperpigmented skin; So this is definitely a plus.
So what's the verdict? I think i'll keep the RX regimen. Seems to be working for me, especially in conjunction with the Clarisonic. If I have seen this much improvement in 60 days who know's what'll change in another 60? I want to reinterate what consistent use means. It means without fail- morning and evening regimen. You are allowed to miss a day or two without your regimen, because we all get lazy, but you must get back on the horse!!! Otherwise you're sitting at a whole week without your skin care in line, and then you're being counter productive to your own results. So, don't do that to yourself, or the product (which you'll end up bashing because of laziness...lol*) As stated in previous blogs it takes about 3 months of continuous use of almost ANY product to see DEFINITE results. I am satisfied at 60 days with current results- so i'll definitely be keeping the RX line. Thank you Dr. Susan Taylor.
Until Next Time...
Monday, July 13, 2009
Sunday, July 12, 2009
"Who am I living for.... question existing..."- Rihanna
Monday, July 6, 2009
Saturday, June 27, 2009
Before I even think about putting an shadow on- no matter who the manufacturer is.. The primer potion must go on the lids. This allows crease-free, long wearing shadows with vibrant colors to STAY.
When Im feelin' oily, or like my makeup simply needs a boost.. I reach for my De-Slicked blot powder. Though the color is almost white with a hint of lavender tone, it goes on colorless and picks up all the oil...making your make up look fresh a while longer. Who doesn't want that!? It also doesn't hurt that it comes in a gorgeous compact. I have dropped this thing a ton of times and havenever had the power fall or crack up- nor the case. Definitely worth every penny!
Do you remember the days when you used to have to burn the tip of your eyeliner to get it to glide? Oh but let us not forget you had to wait about 30 seconds after you did that for it to solidify itself again or else you'd have not only a mashed up pencil, but a mess on your eyelids. Those days are forever gone with 24/7 Glide-on Liner. These pencils are the truth! They go on true to color and don't wipe off too easily. However, when it is time for it to come off... & They do come off without having to rub your eyes out!
For those women of color who say, 'What the heck do I need a bronzer for? I have enough color....' I thought the same thing for a while until I took a look at my pictures when I wore makeup and looked almost like there was no warmth to my skin tone. I didn't look pale but it looked like something was missing! Until I found this wonderful Baked Bronzer...in, 'Toasted'. Now, this doesn't give you that fake lookin' sun BURNT glow with way too much shimmer although I am sure they have that as well. However, if that's what you're lookin' for- this ain't the one for you. I just needed a hint of warth that was matte, and that is exactly what I got with this and I love it!
As you all know I must pencil my no eyebrow having self up with faux ones *lol* This wax with the Brow Box is awesome! After I use an angle brush to apply the brow, I go over it with the wax that is contained at the bottom pop out drawer, and voila! No more rubbed off eyebrows, and it darkens them a bit to make them more noticeable. The box also comes with a nice little applicating angle brush, and small, small, small tweezers. Just in case there is hair, that shouldn't be there. Ingenious!!!
When I am not wearing lashes, I like to front like mine can hang with the big gals.. well with the Multi-benefit Skyscraper mascara... they actually can. Oddly enough when a rep at Sephora showed me the tube, and was going to use some on a customer i did the same thing I normally do, as i have no brows, or lashes *lol* I though, 'what the ufck-ever..." until I saw him apply it... OMG! Yes... it is now in the collection and I love how it curls and lifts lashes while making them that much longer- which is definitely a BENEFIT to me!
When it's all said and done, and this girl is done having fun... All this stuff HAS to come off. Now I reach for my Clean & Sober makeup remover... This cleanes all my makeup off without the hard rubbing or sting. Smells wonderful while doing what it's supposed to. Though it's definitely one to reckon with MUFE's Sens-Eyes.. it does a darn good job second to. Either way it works.. wonderfully at that.
The point of it all is Urban Decay makes some FANTASTIC products! if you haven't given them a try- please do when you get an opportunity. This was my ode.. hope you liked it and saw something you want to give a try.
Until next time...
Sunday, June 21, 2009
I never said you should look like you work at M.A.C... then again that wouldn't be a bad thing anyway that says you got skillz... sometimes. *lol*
OK! Prescriptives blends for your tone. Many ways of coverage powder, liquid, mineral. Need sunscreen? Heck it's in a lot of foundations and products these days. There are consultants all over Sephora, M.A.C., and Macy's counters. ASK for help if you need it. I promise you nobody came out the womb knowing how to apply their perfected shadow. Practice, be prepared to wipe it off and start over if it wasn't the look you wanted... get good products (for you) and see what works and doesn't work for YOU. Either way- stop with the excuses! Beautify your outside to match your inner beauty. There is no such thing as "day/night" make-up. Make-up is about fun and enhancing your representative, and goodness- making a lasting first impression on the world. How many people that you do not know- will walk by you today? Exactly. You may very well not care what they think, but I know what they won't be saying about Nikki. Goes like this: "Damn she was lookin' fugged up." *lol*
Wednesday, June 17, 2009
Sunday, June 14, 2009
1. Blue Skies and Fluffy White Clouds Bubble Bar
This Bubble bar works wonders and smells amazing! Relax in the blue water while the aroma does it's thing. Patchouli!!! MMMmmMM. Very relaxing and one bubble bar goes pretty far. I get about 4 baths out of one bar, and my skin is scented for hours. I like this bath after a tiring day, as it relaxes me like nothing else. Check out their other bubble bars like, Hot milk, Two Timing Tart, and The Comforter.
2. This is the SEX BOMB- aka a bath bomb that smells delightful! I have never had such a lovely bath until I met LUSH. The bomb begins to fizzle one it is plopped into your tub of water. Scents the water and this particular bomb is scented with lots of Jasmine!!! Try this and a few other great bath bombs. I love Sakura, Butterball, and of course Big Blue. They even have Ickle Baby bomb and Baby devil for children which contain lavender.
3. The Sultana of Soap- I bought this soap actually thinking it maybe wouldn't be my favorite bar soap but was Nikki surprised!!! Now my favorite among soaps... Creamy with a hint of fruit such as apricots, cranberry and currant. This soap is the shiz-nit! When i say it leaves the most awesome smell on you- that's what the heck I mean. This among many other soaps like Snowfairy, The Godmother, Rockstar, and Honey I Washed The Kids make bath and shower an experience to behold.
These are just a few products from Lush that I absolutely LOVE. Check them out at http://www.lush.com/ and try a few new things out. Their fresh face masks are awesome too. Though you probably need to get ahold of some of those in an actual store (for those who are so lucky to live near one.) I use 'Sacred Truth' which does justice to a tired face. It is true- I traveled all the way from San Diego to Santa Monica to get ahold of Lush items... Sure I could order them online, but that would take away from the store experience... *sigh* What are some of your favorite bath items?
Until Next Time...
Friday, June 5, 2009
Thursday, June 4, 2009
After blending all colors you should again have a gradient look from top to bottom.
And there you have it... Brown w/Pink...Hope this helped.
Sunday, May 31, 2009
Yes, the Big Budda Brush by Urban Decay, works perfectly with my brickfor $36.00 and it is also soft taklon hair, and ANTI-BACTERIAL. You can't beat that with a stick!!! I have just been getting so many awesome items, and it's almost like there isn't enough time in the day or week to use all of it, but eventually I will. However, I think I found my daily glow with this one here... I LOVE this shimmer brick. I highly suggest you add this to your collection. I promise it'll become you favorite daily accessory soon enough.
Until next time...
Saturday, May 23, 2009
I laugh all the time when I read the "ridiculously bad" reviews on products. Most of those are user error in application or how to use the product, and also a lot of the time, not taking the time to read about the product and what it's specialty really is. I have never had a product that I was like- HORRIBLE... Why you ask? Because I (try to) never buy something before I try it. Period. When you purchase things that are backed by a good return policy- they most than likely also allow you to try it. Why not try it first? DUH... that's what the testers are for.
Who in the hell just sees a product, a tester right there, doesn't try it and says I want that- then complains about it? Idiots do...That's who. You got what you paid for. It is not the company's fault that your skin is retardedly dry or oily. So don't bash the company for not being able to tame your oily face or your sahara desert patches...
Instead of looking for the quick fix- Find a cleanser that targets that, and a product you can live with until it is corrected or at least at bay. There is no quick fix to a lot of our problems, but more of a range of things that can assist while you TREAT the original issue. Things like oiliness is usually sebum glands producing too much oil, and believe me; there are products out there that help and yes even oily people need to use a moisturizer. the skin is over producing because it is deprived. I just wanted to point that out because online while looking for new products to review, and try I always run across some janky reviews on fantastic products. Some are legit complaints- walks like a duck talks like a duck... But most of the time- it's rants from people who don't know where to start. Out out of 100 reviews- 6 are bad and bashing the hell out of the product. Then you read on to find out these people have problematic skin, or issues that that mighty little product was not meant to fix. People need to read.
Though I know it's all personal opinions and we are entitled to them; I just want to point out majority of the people who do shop at these stores, online, and department stores haven't a clue about makeup, skin conditions, or what is really the issue they need to correct for everything else to work in accordance with their "makeup". The best thing to having your makeup look great is a great canvas, and if all you're doing is slapping makeup on top of other problems to quickly make it 'look' good- you're headed for even bigger problems. Fix the main issue, then move on to smaller "fixes".
Until next time...
Monday, May 18, 2009
Though there are some products that I will never abandon M.A.C. for such as my 'Pinch Me' blush, Fix +, and my dazzleglass/lipglass; Ol' Nikki has gone astray from the foundation and yes, even some of the eyeshadows. Though there are some shadows you'll find nowhere else but M.A.C. like 'Shimmer'- Jeeze that color is just beautiful! It just seems as though none of the foundations provided coverage I needed without it feeling like I had tons of it on. Heck- sometimes at the cost of looking like it as well. *sigh* Their shadows, could simply need replacement, but my colors still go on fantastic. So there is nothing wrong with them... I think I'm just over the 'it must be M.A.C.' phase.
Though their products render outstanding reviews, I am no longer impressed. I used to get excited to see the latest celeb promoting it, and what colors were coming next... I got extra happy when I received those invites to M.A.C special events for upcoming collections. Alas, I no longer get excited in the mall when I see a M.A.C. store, I no longer feel the urge to simply go inside and test anything on my skin. I simply do not get moist when M.A.C. is whispered in the air. I just feel the affair is over, and it's time to move on to the other products that are just as great if not better... I'll be seeing you around old faithful M.A.C... I loved you...
Sunday, May 17, 2009
Wednesday, May 13, 2009
Tuesday, May 12, 2009
Saturday, May 9, 2009
What kind of trial would this be without good ol' Lie-Active??? This 'Lean on Me' method worked for about 2 weeks. You see the trick to proactive is it becomes a dependency. In most cases the purpose of the person seeking the product is to correct and then prevent it from reoccuring. But lie-active is all about continuous use. If you stop... you're right back where you started. A cash cow extraordinaire!!! Beware... I had a friend try this and his face bumped up so terribly he had to take off from work for 2 days for his face to calm down. In the word of his boss, "He had to go home. Do you remember that Martin Lawrence episode when he fought that boxer Tommy Hearns??? Well-that's what he looked like- don't use that proactive mess on your face." So I guess it dubs as an industrial cleaner.
No, I'm not going to bash Ambi. Ambi is actually a decent product. Cleaning wise and leaving the skin soft. I'll give it 3.5 stars out of 5. I still however comma will not buy it anymore. Maybe.
So that's just a few out of a billion things I have tried. I just want to know when they will seriously come up with a product that IS for ALL SKIN TYPES that works. *sigh* A day in my life... What have you tried to correct any skin issues you may have had? I would like to know.
Until Next Time...