Thursday, January 31, 2008

B2K refernce.. what was that movie called???

Well I feel 120% better. I tried to go out and have some fun on Tuesday and ya boy decided to flex his little security shirt and tell the ID man I couldn't get in... Claiming he had a restraining order on me... So I didn't cause no ruckus... I just laughed and said if he wants to act like a bia bia... and security want to do it with him, let him. We know his feelings are still attached... he still so brokenhearted he can't even stand to see me come out and have a good time... Awwww poor baby.. He's dealing with that. So my attitude about it is..since you want to act like a dinky then I will be the tamer. So when the night came to an end because I went over my friends house... I had to police escort me to his home to get the rest of my things..in which he lied and said nothing of mines is there... Which in turn I laughed yet again.. He looked like he was about to sh*t on himself when he seen the cops and then seen Chyna He's already doing waaaay too much.. He gonna say "I just want her to leave me alone..." I'm lke well give me my things and stop bothering me when I'm trying to have fun with my friends... Ain't nobody thinking about you. SO that following morning (meaning yesterday) I went and did what I had to do... . I decided to make the lie he claimed the truth.. I went and put a restraining order on his ass. Come to find out he already has 2 on him from 2007... hello!!! But ummm I don't want you nowhere near, me, my house, my car, or my job... Meaning when you see me, you better bend a corner. Because if you even breath in the wrong way in my direction I will call the C-O-P-S... I watch my back at all times and know that piece of paper don't mean shit. However comma it is a pass to bust your ass you run up on me. So don't bother me So since you wanna be a "sociopath"- (Thanks T...) and feel like you're untouchable... and wanna play little mess with me games.. let's play. As they say in checkers.. KING ME. Either way.. I remembered the name of the movie... After he gets them papers in a day or so... I will say it out loud... YOU GOT SERVED. Watch your step punk. You are more than touchable.




"Hey ladies.. when ya man wanna get buckwild. just go back and hit 'em up style..."



Hit Em Up Style- Blu Cantrell

Monday, January 28, 2008

After The Rain.. The Sun Always Shines...

It isn't enough to just know you'll be okay when things go funny in your life. You have to believe that things will be more than alright. When you put out that energy you simply get it back tenfold. Everything goes the way it goes for reasons other than what you expect or know. Don't put a door stopper on a door that needs to be shut for an even better door to open. Don't hold up space in your life for people who choose to be unproductive. They are taking up the room of the productive. Don't wonder why things went certain ways.. it is simply what was meant. I believe by nature people are generally control freaks. Folks want to control every aspect of their lives and in all reality.. you have no control. You have a path and it will be travelled whether you like it or not. Sometimes it's a cold, lonely road, but if it's meant for you to walk it alone you better have an IPOD with you. Just know that at the end of that journey, there will be a million others there who have travelled that same path and have a million different stories, but the end is there shining bright. To the folks who want to blame everyone else for their issues/addictions you can't do it an expect people to follow your lead! If you want the true answer to why things go sour, or plain not your way in life- Take a look in the mirror. YOU are your biggest set-back. If you are too busy trying to make yourself believe it is everyone else holding you down, you're in denial and headed for self destruction. Holding grudges, pointing fingers, and walking around like the world owes you something is nothing but your own ignorance manifested in your life. When will you wake up??? I was told by someone that I am "happy-go-lucky... always smiling...and I was envied because they once were the same way..." Those things don't go away... you avoid them. If you are a happy person- no matter what happens you will be happy even when you're in pain. Everyone is entitled to have "bad" days... But when it's your demeanor.. it's because you choose to be that way. I don't let anything or anybody dictate how my day goes. Why in the world should I give negativaty that kind of energy? I'm young, blessed, talented, beautiful, educated, and have way too much going to let someone elses cloud(s) hang over my head and make me miserable... Even if the saying misery loves company is true. I refuse to become part of that sad fact. I say let that nonsense go!!! This will only be a babble of words to those who want to be blind. The grown will understand all I said. Kna'mean?




"Don't speak... I know just what you're saying.. so please stop explaining.. Don't tell me cause it hurts...Don't speak.. I know what you're thinking... and I don't need your reasons.. Don't tell me cause it hurts..."



Don't Speak- No Doubt

Tuesday, January 22, 2008

Shattered Egos & Broken Glass...

So my girl Bev came down from the 818 to hang out and have a good time. She and I went to Tina's and then on after a few other folks decided that we should all go to the after hours spot to get some reggae on. Bev and myself had parked my car and then noticed that Danny's friend had just pulled up behind us and I sat in the car to watch the scene... How about this ass gonna run up like he want to kick my car and then walked across the street...? Then he threw something that hit my car and obviously cracked my windshield but I didn't know about it until I had left the club. So I bailed up the hill and busted that nigga in the head with my clutch. He wanna try to hit me and then as I kept walking try to trip me... So I turned around, got in his face, and let that boy know on the spot that I wasn't the one, and he better leave me the fuck alone and then I pushed him like a bitch should get pushed.. way back.. Lost footing in that busted down attire... Bitch ass muthafukka.... So all throughout the night he's milk and cookie-in' me worried about his friend speaking to me.. (as he had nothing to do with the bullshit) and whatnot... I'm not one to put my business out there but apparently folks was noticing he had the boo-boo face and was lookin' real Lawry-ish. (salty) Walking by my friends looking for me...All at the DJ booth in my business... I must have hurt his soul when I left his ass alone and his first attempt at breaking my things didn't work... So as the night came to an end Bev and myself walked out to the car and noticed that my windshield was busted... I must have went from 0 to 60 in 2.5 seconds because the next thing I know is I was on the 94 West headed to a familiar destination. I stopped a police officer on the way, who happened to take the report later... So he saw my windshield prior to the rest of the damage... which in turn covered my ass a lil bit... SO back to the story... Mind you it's close to 4:30 in the morning and as I pulled up I noticed he was peeping all out the blinds- meaning he saw what he did to my car before he left the club...and like a hurricane on radar... knew I was coming. So I got out of my car and promptly popped my trunk and got an umbrella... I banged on his screen door. Do you know the arrogant ass had the nerve to sit in the chair leaned back like he was GQ model of the year and say, "What?" I said, "Why in the fuck did you bust my windshield" he gone smirk and say, "I didn't do shit to your car... you better go on.." I said, "Okay you didn't do nothing huh? So my glass just broke on it's own...? You wanna break shit.. well let's break shit.." And with one swing busted his apartment window... I saw the glass fly in his face and the look of shock come over his ass. They must have thought it was a scene from a horror flick.. Thriller maybe.. I know he didn't think I had that kind of temper in me apparently. So I walked off and said, "You think you gonna just tear my shit up and you ain't got no muthafukking repercussions? Fuck that..." So he comes outside and picks up what is like a 4X4 and we tussle a little bit because I told Bev to drive off.. but she sat there saying she wan't going to leave me with that crazy fool... but I know he ain't dumb enough to hit me... (I forgive you Bev lol) So this jack ass throws it at my car busting the windows.. then Bev jumps out cursing his ass out... and what not... I ain't tripping because I'm insured... this is going to be taken care of... but your ass gotta explain to military housing why you got that heat at that complex like that, and 2, your wife who is out to sea- gotta hear about it because it's coming out of her check to fix that glass.. and finally I will see your ass in court...Your witness ain't gonna come.. he on probation and ain't have no business in that kind of drama... My witness will come. So the po-po come through and all the info gets taken and do you know the whole time this happened... ashy ankles was in the house and bet she didn't bring her ass out to fight her so-called mans battle... She must now know he ain't fucking with no punk bitch....and she better stay in her lane with his bitch ass. He likes drama and that's why shit is like it is now with him because he likes to keep shit up... Don't know how to leave well enough alone. I messed with you all of 5 months and you tripping like that??? Because I don't want you???? Man this thang must be GOOOOOD!!! The average everyday man would have been like okay you don't want me.. oh well and move on... but this fool tried to get a rise out of me that prior morning and apparently didn't get the reaction he was hoping for when he broke my other shit up, so he wanted to mess with Priscilla!?!? (that's my car) OH HELL NO! All this was- was a damn fool acting out over a bruised ego... GET OVER IT BUDDY- you ain't the first person to get handed walking papers, let go, dumped, terminated, dismissed etc etc and you damn sure ain't gonna be the last. So just MOVE ON and let it go!!! Usually I'm like Dr. Martin Luther King in my approach to violent situations.. non-violent non-violent... but I had to get Malcom X on his ass- By any means neccessary. Who in the hell do you think I am? Little Miss Nice? Im not going to run behind you.. chasing you... them hoes want you... not me. I can do WAAAAAAY better and he knows it. He must have thought doing dumb stuff like that was going to make me want him or something... No- you just made me want to kick your ass. The first edition of "Crazy folks" didn't come out in 1984... I can get just as crazy with your ass. Lesson learned: Don't mess with people who don't have nothing going for themselves.. because when it goes down, they don't respect your sh*t because they ain't got sh*t. Now...will someone please call VH-1? I needs me a reality show people.




P.S. I got like Lil Jon and was loose on that Grey Goose and cranberry juice...and Bev was gone on Patron... Not that that made us act a fool or nothing... Good-nite.



"And if my day keeps going this way I just might break something tonight... GIVE ME SOMETHING TO BREAK!!!"- Break Stuff- Limp Bizkit

Saturday, January 19, 2008

Yeah Dat...

So it's super official folks.. I am a bitch and everything else that goes with it... This fool goes off into a tangent last night because I asked for my belongings, and didn't want to drag out the inevitable.. which is we is not going to work... and voila' he decides to act like a female about it. Throwing sh*t, cursing, and acting a pure ass. Breaking cologne bottles and stuff.. I'm just like okay.. your ass is crazy. Now mind you this sh*t was super hilarious as it was happening because it was a straight movie scene out in front of military housing at 2 a.m. So I picked my things up and got in the car and drove off. Now I know this person is vindictive but to the degree that he said he was going to knock my jaw off... I turned my vehicle around and promptly asked why my jaw was attached to my face still.. then it becomes "you ain't even worth it..." No you wasn't never that crazy. Scary ass. Anyway, good to know that chapter is TRULY over and done... I don't need that kind of nonsense. So after all that was said and done why the fool kept texting me? Now i'm all kinds of b*tches... etc etc.. and I'm like that's okay because you know what you did with this b*tch... *lmao* Don't make me put you and your actions behind closed doors on blast nucca. Shame on it all... lol..




"Everything you own in a box to the left... In the closet that's my stuff (Yes) If I bought it n*gga please don't touch..."- Irreplaceable -Beyonce

Thursday, January 3, 2008

He's Laughing At Your Dumb Ass Too...

You know what I never understood about women who deal with men who obviously have more than one woman? I cannot front because I have been there... But I am never the last fool standing. It don't take but a bit for me to get the hint and move on to the next young buck that got it going on. I never understood in the end WHY oh why these women act like they just won the California Super Lotto. Running to tell the world about this so called love they found... Many of them talking silly on myspace... posting pictures like it's something when some other chick got pics of the same ni99@ in the same outfit or maybe the outfit your ass bought him just hugged up with her ass.. Oh I seen it folks *smh* I mean when you actually step back at look at the situation for what it is.. you realize that nobody is winning in it, besides the loser himself. He's sitting back.. doing what he wants, how he wants, with who he wants, and you better believe he's telling his boys what he got outta one and the other, and laughing at all of their dumb asses in the meantime. Why would you WANT to deal with it? I know I had to slap myself and wake the hell up. What is the female getting out of stressing herself out wondering why he's doing the things he's doing... Why she is feeling the way she feels.. and why in the blue hell she think she can't do better? As Katt Williams so nicely put it.. SELF ESTEEM bitch... lol. Exactly, nothing. so why do women act so hurt when these idiots choose another woman over them? Tell the trifling b*tch she can have his sorry ass.. Especially if he ain't got NOTHING going for himself besides "good dick", and "good dick" ain't hard to find (Holla if you hear me)...If you gotta pick him up, take him where he gotta go... feed and clothe his ass.. when you do go out & eat... you're the one doing all the doing plus all thee above.. he ain't a man. He's a little boy perping a man and your silly ass is allowing it. Sh*t- he's acting like he's got the pussy between his legs. That sh*t gets old quick, especially when they start acting like you owe their ass something...Getting bold enough to tell you what you should go out and do.. like you won't... Uh how about you pump your brakes in '08? The female is supposed to have those things done and those things done for her if she's a true QUEEN. The king is supposed to provide for the queen... get ya roles right! WHAT-CHU MAD CAN'T HANDLE THAT??? But if a chick want to act like his mama.. let her ass especially if she's old enough to be his damn mama *lmao*. Nine times out of ten he's telling her silly ass the same thing he told you...And it's only a matter of time before he's treating her like he treated you because he met a NEW fool. The only difference is, it's okay to be a young fool.... Don't be an old fool. I always say, it's okay to be a fool for love.. just don't be a DAMN fool. That's the point ladies!!! Take a long hard look in the mirror- state what you are worth... and go out and be worthy! I don't have not a one tree growing in my face, and I know what I'm capable of... and I can do bad by myself but hell, I can do good by myself as well(Thanks E). I'm too sexy.. got too much going for myself.. and I'm plain too fly for the bullsh*t some folks want to pull. I said it in the past... and I will say it again, when I walk away I have nothing to regret because I am always the person & lady I am supposed to be..beside LOOK at me *lmao* Comon now... I can do better! The bullshit... I'll leave that for for them ashy h*es... Yeah I said it...ASHY. The good thing when you leave situations like that alone... an even better deal ALWAYS comes along if you know what I mean...Mines certainly did. Goodnite folks!








"Like a perm that's been left on too- long it starts to burn- the result is it just won't take... You holdin' up traffic green means GO- So if you want -to you got the green light..." -



Green Light- Beyonce

Tuesday, January 1, 2008

Make 2008 Great!!!

Uhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!! Here we are; a new year and lets not bring the same old bullshit from 2007 into this YEAR!!!! Man I feel so good... People asking why, why, why am I not out acting an ass...? Because tonight is the night all the REAL looney-tix come out and I am not in the business of getting scuffed up by the riff raff... If ya'll haven't noticed I have posted a new photo album as it has been a minute and I have been getting me sexy sexy on.. Had to remind ya'll in case you forgot! This is going to be a better year than any passed thus far.. Welcome 2008 with open arms....I Love allayall.. and in case you haven't caught it.. My profile is public so a few bitches can roam it and be nosey.. HEY BITCHES. nothing to see here.. so keep it moving! Daysha.. I love you mama.. You're my world.. everything I do I do it for that girl!!! Somebody step to her- my ass will be under the jail house for my baby girl. To my fam.. it's gonna be a better year!!! My WOMEN (cuz I don't hang with little girls) You all know you're the sh*t and ain't no heffa we seen doing it like us... Keep making them hoes hate..They know they can get on nor ever BE ON our level... Some act like they got a level to get on and all I got to say about that is... " You're right. I can't be on your level... because yours is beneath me.. My level has been above, beyond and surpassed the one you hold with high regards *tsk tsk*..". If a b*tch got beef, tell that h*e we got tortillas... we can make TACOS if they feel the need... Then again my mama told me not to fight ugly people cuz they ain't got NOTHING to lose...Let 'em keep staring and hating... I'm trying to get to 16 before the summer anyway. Hotghettomess (AKA HAM's) candidates need to stop hating on the sexy sistas 4 reeeeeely and get their bars up. If you don't know how... ASK. To my homeboys who have been here for me regardless of the BS I was going through, I love you guys for that sh*t... it's not a one mufukk@ I will put before any of you... because you haven't put any b*tch before me... That's real love. To the funky ass men that have been in and out my life... Can't make up their mind what they want.. Playing games... Phoney bones in every portion of their bodies... Keep it moving... leather coat in the summer time wearing ass nobodies...There's a reason you're not here with a sistah today and I guarantee it wasn't ME. Usta kiss me and all you can do now is miss me...Oh she's so sexy!!! HOLLA!!! Regret nothing and live for today... I'm going to MAKE 2008 GREAT!!!